Abusing Love

Levi and Hanji at the Hospital

 Frankly, I don't have a relationship with my dad, so I'm trying my hardest to get past that barrier, so yes, this is a filler chapter! Again, I apologize immensely!

Once again, I check in on how Eren's doing. I reach out to touch his cold cheek, wishing he would wake up so I could see his beautiful eyes again. The monitors continue to do their job in making sure Eren's alive, and tears well up in my eyes at the thought that I almost lost him...because of me.

"Eren...I'm so sorry.." I whisper, leaning down to gently kiss his head. A tear runs down my face and drops onto him, and I wish that this had never happened.

I wish I could take back everything that had been going on between us these past few months. I wish I could take back the times that I yelled at him and abused him. I wish I could take back every blow that I dealt upon him, and every time I pushed him away.

I wish I had never taken Grisha's offer.

I watch Levi as he gets up to leave Eren's room for the first time in two days. I've been really worried that Levi would do something drastic, escpecially with what happened in the past, but all I've seen is a man that is in shock and is horrified.

Then blames himself for everything that happened to his lover.

"Levi," I call out, placing a hand on his arm. "Levi, it's not your fault. Please talk to me."

He shrugs my hand off, his eyes dull and bloodshot. "Fuck off Hanji."

I flinch at how cold and monotonous his voice is, and cringe at how he doesn't use his nickname for me.

I just want my friend back.

Okay, this is so sad, but that's all I got for this filler chapter. Once again, I apologize, and I'm trying to get the real chapter up!