Abusing Love

A Stubborn Levi: Eren's Awake!

Sorry about not posting the chapter Saturday, but here's the next~ Back to what's going on at the hospital! Oh, Levi POV!

It's been a few days since Eren was admitted to the hospital, and he's been healing at a normal rate which scares me. He's always healed faster after every injury, and that makes me wonder if it's my fault that he's not healing like he was. Did I somehow make him like this?

Wait, of course I did. If it wasn't for me, Eren wouldn't have tried to kill himself even though he already knows that he couldn't possibly die. It's my fault that he's even here in the first place.

I haven't bothered to leave his side except for the bathroom, and I barely eat except for what Hanji and Erwin manage to get down my throat. I couldn't bear to leave him even after coming to the fact that I was the one who put him here. I'm waiting for him to wake up so I could apologize for everything I've done.

If he would just wake up and open his eyes, I could fix this at least a little.

But no matter what we try, Eren hasn't stirred once since we got here. In a normal situation, Eren should've woken up two days ago. This is not a normal situation, which means he should've woken up much sooner than that. I'm worried that he'll never wake up, and I'll never see his teal-jeweled eyes ever again.

Hanji came in and told me Erwin wanted me to eat lunch with him, so I got up and left the room. I don't think me being in the room was of any use, but it made me feel less stressed since I could hear Eren's heartbeat from his monitor. Just knowing that he was alive helped a little.

When I enter the cafeteria, Erwin immediately motions me to join him in a corner of the room. I'm thankful that he knows I don't want to be around others, and quickly join him. I notice that he has already prepared food for me, and I scowl.

"Levi, you have to eat." He says, and pushes the food towards me.

"No, I don't. Your not going to make me either." I push the food back towards him, and lean away from the table.

He sighs at my stubbornness. "Levi, it's not good for you to keep acting like this."

I glare sharply at him, cursing at him for mentioning Eren. "Who knows what he wants. It's my fault that he's hurt and there's probably no way in hell that he wants to be around me when he finally wakes up."

He looks at me with a guilty look like he wounded an animal. God, I hate how he pities me. I brought this upon myself, I deserve Eren hating me. I never even deserved him to begin with.

"Levi, you know that both me and Hanji don't believe that for one second."

I look away from him, "Hanji promised me that she wouldn't let me hurt Eren, yet here we are."

Erwin gives me a disapproving glare that emphasizes his overly large eyebrows, "Levi, Hanji feels just as responsible as you., Hell, we all do."

He leans over ad presses one of his enormous hands on my crossed arms. I shrug them off and stand up.

"Levi, please!" Erwin stands as well, but at that moment Hanji decides to burst into the cafeteria.

"EREN'S AWAKE!" She proclaims at the top of her lungs, causing everyone in the room to look at her strangely.

Erwin, Hanji and I sprint out of the cafeteria and head straight back to Eren's room. We make it there before the doctor shows up, and I slam the door open, startling a confused Eren.

"What the hell?" I hear Eren say, and I tackle him and hold him close to me before I whisper in his ear.

"Eren, I'm so sorry! Please don't leave me, I'll tell you everything! I'm so sorry Eren!"

He pats my back, and I hear him sniff. "Please don't cry Eren, please," I beg. Yes, the stark cold Levi Ackerman is begging.

He pulls me in closer and nods. "I'm not going anywhere Levi, I'm sorry."

At his words all the guilt that has plagued me since Grisha's first phone call starts to overflow all my senses, and for the first time in a while I cry.

Okay, this is a fairly short chapter, and I profusely apologize. Please just accept this as a gift to you and I promise to have more for you next week!