Remembering Snowflakes

Chapter 12: Settler's Paradise.

Raphael took me to see the ocean. An ocean filled with crying souls beneath it, they can never escape that place because of what they did in their past life. I realize that there is no refuge for them but damnation even though some want to change everything and make it right. Before we even get the chance to go someplace, I was nearly pulled in the sea of souls. Two or three souls were pulling me and Raphael was there to save me. That was really close. If he didn't save me, I'm sure I will never go back again. 

"Be careful, next time. Don't leave my side. Some souls feed on other souls for them to feel alive again. And you, you are still alive."

"Yes, I understand. Thank you, for saving me."

"Did you see them? Those souls? Souls who are begging for one more chance? I want you to see how lucky you are. How I want you to go back again and make things right. Let the people around you make things right. Let them because second chances don't come for free again."

I was just staring at him, knowing that what he says is right. We were transported back to earth, I saw my father crying beside me, holding my hand. He was saying sorry again and again, how we wanted me to live for them and for the people that love me. He's saying that he will make it up to me, he will cut every connection between him and Natasha if that will bring us back together. He said that he loves her, but he loves me and my mother more.

 Then the scene went to a big house. It was Natasha's place. She was talking to James. They were arguing about her relationship with my Dad. James was telling his sister that what she did is wrong and she should stay away from him from now on. She said that she can't because she loves him, she can't live without him and also my Dad doesn't love my mother anymore. James told her how selfish she is and blames her for what happened to me then he left her there, sobbing. 

Then the scene went to my Mom. She was in a bar, drinking and crying. She was blaming herself for what happened between him and my dad. She didn't do her job as a wife and as a mother to me. She had her faults but she didn't think of finding someone else to replace my father. She loves him very much that it aches to even think my dad replacing her by someone else. Mr. Colduroy was there to take her home safely when she passed out.

I was transported to the hospital again, where I saw Shevaya, Fabio, James, and Hugo looking at the glass in my room. They were talking about me and saying that it's been three months and I'm still unconscious. Don't lose hope guys, I'll be back again. 

Everything went black and I saw the scene where my father talked to Natasha, ending everything between them. They were both crying, they must really love each other. I don't see my father looking at my mom like how he looks at Natasha. Not anymore. It's really possible to fall out of love with someone huh? Well, I will do everything to make things right. I will make a change and I know they will too.

Raphael was with me when a scene changed into something unspeakable, Natasha was found dead by her maids. She took some Valium and she overdosed. I felt sad even though I should be angry with her for being one of the reasons why my family is broken. But, I can't help but feel sorry for her, for my father, and for James. James was not angry about my Dad. He told him that her sister did that to herself and no one is to blame. He knows that what she did to my family is wrong but, my dad shouldn't make her fall for him in the first place but he did anyway. 

It's weird that I'm only in that place for days but it's been three months here and I'm still not waking up. Soon I will, I guess? I have many things to do when I'll go back and thanks to Raphael, he's the reason why I want to go back again. He taught me many things that I did not know. And he taught and made realize that life is worth living again. Contemplating this when Raphael told me that we will go back now. 

We were in that oak tree again, looking at the beautiful mountain hills when he said something.

"I want you to remember something before you go back again. You and James will end up together. Your mom and dad will fall back into love again. You will be much more happy than before. You will succeed in everything you do. Life is gonna be more beautiful. And when that special day of yours arrives, you will know that when you're there, don't worry. You will know that because snowflakes will fall. When that first drop of snowflakes touches you, you will see me. I promise you. I'm not gonna tell you to wait for that day because once you go back, you will not have any single memory of what happened to you here. You will not even remember I existed."

"Why are you saying these things to me? You are breaking my heart. It seems that what you are saying is impossible, I know that I will never forget you or all of this when I go back. Whatever you say, I don't care. Let me enjoy the remaining days here, with you. I want to thank you for everything. For everyday. For being my guardian angel."

"Just know that I will never let anything bad happen to you. I will always be by your side even if you don't see me. Remember that okay. Remember the snowflakes. Remember me and all the things I taught you. You will be okay now, my Rio. Everything's gonna be okay now. Trust me."

After that, I saw the most beautiful creation ever made. I saw his breathtaking wings and his face. His face that took my heart and made his. My mind, heart, and soul knows that he will always remain mine and me his. I may not know if I'll remember him again or think about what happened to me here, I know that I will, I will always yearn for him. The angel who I loved and gave me reason to live my life.

I cried my heart out upon knowing this, but I never knew that this will be the day that I don't expect. The day that I will go back to life again. The day of uncertainty, uncertainty and the pain that is waiting for me caused by him. Someone lifted my chin, it was him. Before everything went to black and felt like a roller coaster ride, he kissed and touched me for the first time. He told me that this will cost him something. Is this the cost of not remembering him again? If it is, I am willing to suffer than never feeling him in every inch of me. I am willing to sacrifice everything. 

"I love you."

"I love you, even in the firmaments of heaven."

Next thing I know, I was in my body again. Flesh and blood. "What happened?" That's the first thing I've said when I woke up after a year on a coma.