november 2018
it was november, the start of november when our class adviser sent us the seat plan.
wala akong naging pake, but sum gut made me happy to see that i was assigned to seat beside this guy, namely Adrian. He was cute yes, pero never ko naisip na that month would change the rest of the year.
Days goes by, the two of us started to get close. Before this, dedma lang. Oo, classmates kami and minsan nagiging groupmate ko siya pero hanggang doon nalang yon. classmate.
I never really cared sakanya noon.
But then, he started talking to me through messenger. He started all the endless conversations and actually made me special. Yun nga eh, nagassume ako, so I started..
falling for him.
Which sucks kasi seatmate kami right? He kept clinging on me. Lalo tuloy nahuhulog ang loob ko sakanya. Pero onti onti kong nalalaman na may gusto siyang iba.
Kahit meron, i still kept wondering why.
Why? Bakit?
Bakit niya ako pinapaasa ng ganito.
Bakit kailangan niya pang ipadama sakin na special ako sakanya kahit hindi naman talaga.
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I remembered it was the 21st of November nung nagkaroon kami ng English show. Same feelings.
I still like him.
He wore this polo and God he looks so beautiful. He also smells so good. Like sobra, you wont stop thinking about that smell. I was admiring him the whole time. My whole group of friends knew that I have a crush on him.
Kasi naman, I kept blabbing about him and how he affects me so much.
Kahit iba gusto niya...
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It was the 25th of November, when he became a candidate ng isa sa event sa school.
I was there, pinanuod ko lahat ng laban niya. He was even talking to me backstage.
Oo, yes kinikilig ako pero at the same time naguguluhan parin ako sakanya.
Pano ba naman kasi, he was updating me all the things, he even asked me kung andon ba ako.
Paasa.
It was good to see him on that stage, kahit ilang beses pa niya sinabi sa akin na may stage fright siya. I was very proud na na overcome niya ang hiya niya, of course friends naman kami right?
Mabilis lang ang november, we became very close. Very close. Not that close pero kinda?
He is funny, smart, handsome, ano pa bang mahihiling mo? —
na sana magustuhan niya rin ako.
Im not the prettiest, lalo na pag kinompare mo sa mga exes niya. But the thing is, I have a great heart. Yun nalang pang laban ko, hehe.
Hindi nagbabago ang feelings ko sakanya. He kept on making this small conversations in messenger like
"Hi, kumain ka na? ".
Hindi ko talaga alam kung ank gusto niyang iparating but oh well. Sige na para tumaba na ako sure.
Hindi na ako napapaalis sa upuan ko dahil ssyempre seatmate ko siya. Masyado kasi akong naattach sa amoy niya. 8 hrs akong nagsusuffer pigilan ang sarili na wag siyang yakapin.
Anyways, maharot ako yes. Pero hindi ko naman kasi kasalanan na mahuhulog ako ganon kabilis. Crush.
Limang letra pero ang hirap kalimutan.
Minsan talaga, may taong dadating bigla bigla. Kaya beware.
