I wrote this a while ago to keep strong. I really wanted to die but I controlled myself.
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I wanna love & be loved
Drown me in you
Suffocate me in you
Actually choke me up with the sight of you
I have people around me that most likely love me but sometimes I just don't feel it
Like if you really loved me wouldn't you make it known?
Wouldn't you want it loud and proud?
Wouldn't you reassure them?
Secure them in your love
Make them your "one" and nothing less
Empower them
But most importantly grow with them
Uplift each other
Unite, become one and stay indestructible together
Love requires unity, understanding, patience, kindness, PASSION, care, tenderness, compassion, willingness to change... etc.
Love is much more than 3 words
Much more than a feeling as cliche as it sounds
As lame as feelings are, love will hit you fucking hard
Harder than the feeling you get before a depression nap
It's like a slap of reality
Suddenly you're not alone
Suddenly you've got this person by your side down for you and only you
Someone who takes you as you are, broken or not
You need to realize that you're not always alone
Someone even if it's one person values you
As a whole, fragment and even a vision
You have worth
You are loved
Stop seeking love for you already have it
Cecilia... No.
Ceci, were a robot but that's not who you are anymore
You are a kind, loving, generous, strong yet vulnerable young woman
You're determined to not make the same mistakes as the women in your family
You know what you want, deserve and will give
You are an egg, hard shell with a soft inside
You've been alone all your life but not anymore
Depend on yourself but you do have a few people who are there for you
Hold your tongue for your words are deadly
Your words hold the power to tear down, destroy, destruct, deform, obliviate, obliterate, dissipate... the list goes on
Be careful
You're the type that puts those you love before you
You're a protector, provider and a home
Not anymore. Stop it right there.
Be selfish, take care of yourself
Stop being a mother
Be an 18 year old, be more reckless and less uptight
Don't give a fuck about what anyone says
Be unapologetically you
The real you
Embrace your lil tummy, your curves, your bum, your thighs, your everything
Be comfortable in your own skin is what I'm saying
You're desirable Ceci
Yes, you really are
You're killer, stunning, the way the sun kisses your skin is magnificent, you're beautiful sweetie don't let anyone tell you otherwise
Love yourself even more than you already do
You're so self confident I love it
Become the best version of you, be that woman you envisioned yourself to be
You can do this
I'm proud of you
You never imagined yourself lasting till now but look at you, 24 days away from graduation
Keep strong.
For me, for you and definitely for us❤
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Despondency
PoetryMy personal poems about my life and what not. I will be using this to track my writing progress while getting my creative writing degree. All forms of criticism are accepted!
