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Peridot POV

"And then you won't believe what else they said, but me the most adorable, Lovable aquamarine, they told me! That I had the emotional range of an teaspoon. I am the most empathic person in that bloody classroom-" muffled, because after the first half of her complaining I lost track of when I stopped listening or if I even cared enough to listen the moment she opened her mouth, she laid across me, her head in my lap. I sighed deeply "and - Peridot are you even listening to me?"  Snapping her fingers, snapping me out of my trance . " H-huh what? I was listening .." She lets out an agonizing groan "Repeat after me every single word i just said then?" I just sat there in a long pause "I thought so" she rolled her eyes " sometimes I feel like you just don't care" she removed herself from my lap "I think I should go.." oh brother here we go again. I thought "w-wait , i-im sorry i" I go to reach for her hand but she smacks mine away "don't touch me" She starts to shake, I hear a sniffle as she covers her face an begin to cry "aquamarine.." guilt kicking in, way to neglect your girlfriend you clod. "Aquamarine, please don't cry, i-i really am s-sorry" I go to hug her but instead get greeted with an slap across the face, I take a step back "you won't even say it back!" Face full of tears now "s-say what?" "You damn well bloody know what, you won't even say I love you back! Is it another girl! Do you not love me?!" The guilt sinking in more, I do care, but...this is all my fault. I pull her into an tight embrace but she tries to fight back "Aquamarine. . .I do. . I do care about you . .and i-i- do like you a-a lot but it's only been four weeks since we started dating, I just. ." That's right, it's only been about four weeks since we started dating, since I asked her out to the dance, since I made that mistake of. . Making her my first kiss . . Now I can't pull out now, I'm already in too deep, I mean I do care, I think ..but
"You just what Peridot" she interrupt my thoughts "I. ." I cup her face in my hands brushing away her tears then forcing a kiss, she gives in afterwards which ends up turning into an unwanted makeout session, she pulls away panting "I do..i-i love you" my stomach turned, I'm awful. . Her personality turns completely "Oh PER BEAR DARLING~ I LOVE YOU TOO, and I won't never ever hit you again!" That was in fact an complete lie. After hanging out with aquamarine I went back to my dorm "I'm home" flipping on the lights and being greeted by nothing but pure silence, yet again. Lapis room door bore wide open and inside was completely stripped naked, no trace of life ever residing. I sigh deeply "hey kitten" he greets me with an meow, grooming against my leg I pick him up"yeah buddy, I'm home, I know you miss lapis and pumpkin too" I kiss the top of his fuzzy head. Where did she go?

Lapis POV

"I really appreciate this Keke" she just shrugs " it's no problem lapis, stay as long as you need" she hands me an set of pillows and blankets as she lays out on the air mattress "Keke. . You dont have to do this. . I-i can sleep on the mattress, you can have your bed please , I'll be gone by tomorrow if Connie can make it . . Hopefully " I mutter the last part, then I remembered Steven, oh Steven I hope you are okay. . Where are you? She places a hand on my shoulder "Hey Lapis, it's totally fine, besides the air mattress is more comfy than that lump of coal for a mattress, " she goes to lay back down, tucking herself in "and don't worry so much, or you'll end up looking like my ganga before your her age" I just chuckle "wow thanks Keke" she falls asleep a few minutes after. settling myself in, getting lost in thought while pumpkin snuggled into my side, my mind end up wondering from Steven to Peridot. I should've known, everything I said to her, that moment. . I thought- I thought she felt something too, I guess . . I was just wrong , she has an girlfriend now, out of all people , HER . mixture of conflicting emotions started to fill my gut, then that image suddenly just pops into my head and I feel my gut twist all over again. my heart felt as if it shattered into tiny pieces, like i swallowed glass as it cuts my throat. I muffle my cries as not to wake up Keke, crying myself to sleep.

Time skip (earlier time)

"I'm Aquamarine Peridot's girlfriend" those words echoed into my ears, " oh I see. ." I utter "hey whose this?" Amethyst and Pearl along side two others appeared from the crowd but I was already long gone, fighting my way through the crowd " I KNEW THIS WAS A BAD IDEA!" I finally make it out and back home, slamming the door shut. I go to the bathroom locking myself in and turning on the faucet, splashing my face full of water, I just stare at myself in the mirror. why?! Why did I ever listen to amethyst, I'm such a fool! . . .  Strings of my hair were sticking out of place, my makeup was smeared and running down my face, I looked like a sad clown. I wash off the rest. Taking off my costume I hop into the shower, where I cradle myself as the water fell onto my body. Everything i said to her. . It meant nothing . . .it was just an act, a joke. My thoughts were soon interrupted moments later due to a loud banging at door. I ignored it, it continued but louder, I sigh. I turn off the shower wrapping myself in my towel. Before I could reach the knob the loud banging stopped, I looked through the peep hole but no one was there, I unlock the door, cracking it open, "hello?.." there was no one in the hallway within sight. "maybe it's my imagination" I close the door but before I do I hear a crumple underneath my foot, it was white envelope. picking up the envelope an locking the door I noticed immediately it had no return address, not even an address to whom. I turn the envelope around and on the back my name was written on it, I shrug, opening the envelope there was an letter inside. unfolding it, it was not particularly a long letter but only a few words to an sentence. enough to send shivers down my spine and fear shaking in my legs. Pumpkin just looked up at me with concern but I was too engulfed by the darkness to hear her cries.

Time skip (back to the present)

I sat reclined on the couch, flipping through the channels, nothing interesting to watch, if lapis were here we would be watching Camp Pining Clods together with a bowl of popcorn and other snacks, but like everything else I ruined that too but then anger filled my gut "to hell with that! Why should I care ?! She has a boyfriend anyway, so what's her problem , she was going to ask me to be her date?! Yeah right! Probably cause her stupid boyfriend dumped her or something. so she couldn't take him, that's all! I was just nothing more but a replacement! News flash said amethyst, I fucked up! As if. Even if I did how was I supposed to know it's not like- like lapis even trust me enough to tell me anything. . . Anymore. ." Startling kitten out of his sleep as he was sleeping soundlessly on my tummy I take a deep breath pinching the bridge of my nose "I'm sorry kitten.." giving up on finding any entertainment because nothing would satisfy my melancholy, I felt my depression slowly kicking in "it-its just. . I thought- maybe I did screw up big time pumpkin. . But it's too late now. . " as I start to stroke his head he purrs into my hand, I scratch under his chin which he enjoys and this somehow comforts me, I smile then it fades as soon noticed the black and blue string dangling from my wrist that I all but forgotten I subconsciously continue to wear "it's just I thought - I dunno kitten . . But it's too late, it'll never happen and it wasn't meant to be. . I have aquamarine now " he just meows I chuckle "thanks kitten you always give good advice, you should be an therapist " he just meows in response, from the corner of my eye I then noticed an opened envelope with an letter sticking half out, it looked as if it's already been opened and read. I turn it around to see lapis name written on it and sigh. I shouldnt- it's probably personal, maybe even an love letter or something. . Probably from this " Steven guy" his name left a sour taste at the tip of my tongue . I stare hard at the letter "just look away peridot " but curiosity got the best of me, I open up the letter and read it anyway, an soon as I read it. I was immediately filled with regret as I stared at those words composed into an single sentence, I knew something was terribly wrong, terribly terribly wrong, and that Lapis- might be in danger ..

Letter:
I'm coming for you bitch! I'm going to steal everything you have, just like you stolen from me!

"Their all gonna die", I mutter the last piece.

Lapis . . . A gasp escapes my lips.