more than this. (chris x chandler)

speechless

chandlers pov.

i told jimmy how i felt about chris. and honestly, just telling him made me feel so much better. "yeah, i know" jimmy laughs. "what?" i say confused. jimmy laughs again. "it's obvious, chandler. the way you guys look at eachother screams that you're in love."
i blush lightly. "we're not in love." i state. "it's just a silly little crush. i'll get over it in no time." i say, crossing my arms. "whatever you say dude. i'm just happy you told me. i've been waiting for this moment my entire life!" jimmy exclaims happily. "but how are you gonna tell him?" jimmy asks. "i'm not. he doesn't need to know" i say sadly while playing with my fingers. "i'm sure he'd want to, considering the way he looks at you." jimmy smirks. "what? how does he look at me?" i question. "like he's completely in love with you. and you're the only thing he cares about." jimmy smiles. i can feel my face getting hot so i say nothing and walk in the kitchen to get some water. "do you really think he doesn't have feelings for you? you guys are all over eachother all the time!" jimmy says as he comes up behind me. i roll my eyes not buying that he likes me. "i'm just gonna get hurt jimmy. he doesn't fucking want me, and he never will. i might as well just give up on love. i'm not even supposed to feel this way about him! he'll never want a freak like me!" i scream as i start to tear up. jimmy pulls me in for a hug. "you're not a freak chandler. you're my best friend. and his. you guys would be perfect together. i really think he likes you. you have to give it a chance." jimmy gives me a soft smile. "now go get your man!" jimmy says excited. i laugh and thank him for making me feel better. then i take my keys and get in my car and drive off to go see chris and tell him how i feel. i get to his house and can feel my heart racing. i open the door using the key he gave me and slowly walk in. then i see something that i will never forget. he was with someone. he was with a girl. he was kissing a girl. my mouth is wide open. and i start to tear up. chris pushes her off of him and sees me. the look in his eyes looked like pure regret. she asked what was wrong, not yet noticing me. "get the fuck out" he tells her with a deep voice. she quickly gets up and walks past me. i stay speechless and feel the hot tears stream down my face. "chandler i-" chris begins before i interrupt him. "don't. just fucking don't" i say. i could see his face fall. i stormed out of his house. and went back to my own. planning on staying there forever and giving up on everything.

this story sucks lmao but i'm trying yanno. anyways, literally no ones gonna see this but yolo✌🏼😎