The One That Got Away

I love you

"I love you"

Three words that describes my feelings for you,
but too afraid to say it to you,
wish I had all the courage to tell you

It's been a year since I've fallen for you,
I am still in denial about my feelings,
and yet here I am,
I still haven't forgotten about you.

Days, weeks and months have passed and still, you're all I could think about
Now, that we're apart I thought I could get over you but I guess I held on

Too many "What ifs" been crossing my mind
What if there were chances between us?
What if you also felt the same way but was also afraid to tell me?

What if I confessed to you the day before I left?
Would you have rejected me?
or would it have been the start of "us".
Should I just give up and let go of my feelings for you?

I feel like an idiot for hoping you would like me back,
I know it's impossible,
I ended up hurting myself for thinking about you

I love you but you don't feel the same way