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Chapter 6

*Tori's POV*

Matt grabbed his phone off the table and immediately started texting. I was kind of nervous because I know my mom and she doesn't ever let me hang out with boys. I'm still in shock that Matt and Carter are both allowed to spend the night.

"Okay so I went in the group chat and Nash and Cam said they're coming with Hayes, Brent, and two girls. I guess they're dating Cam and Nash. Their names are Jenny and Lacy." Matt explains.

"Ahhh so we've got Nacy and Jemmy then. How adorable," Carter basically pees his pants laughing.

"Yeah I guess bro. Oh Tori, your mom won't mind right?" Matt turns to me with a pleading look on his face.

I don't even know who the hell these people are and yet they're coming to my house. Classy.

"Uh yeah she probably will so tell them to climb the big tree that leads to my balcony and so they can sneak in," I shyly turned my face away so Matt couldn't see my guilt.

"Oh alright. I'll let them know. And hey look at me," he uses his free hand to turn my face towards his," it's okay Tori. Just be yourself. My mom wouldn't be cool with me having tons of girls over. It'll be alright. Just relax and have some fun."

I smiled at the last part and I nodded my head. This kid was going to be the death of me. I could just tell. But as soon as he knows how vulnerable and weird I am, he's not going to like me. I don't fit in with people like him and I never will. But I'll try my hardest to just be me.

A few minutes later the rest of the gang showed up and introduced themselves. Now we're all in a circle ready to play the game. Cam decided to go first.

"Nash truth or dare?"

"Dare." He smiled mischievously.

"I dare you to run out on the balcony in your underwear only and start singing Baby by Justin Bieber to serenade Lacy," Nash's face became pale but he reluctantly did his dare and let me tell you, it was fucking hilarious.

"Okay man. That was horrible," Nash jokingly smacked Cam and returned to his spot.

"Matt truth or dare?"

Matt looks at me and flashes his signature grin, "Truth."

"Aw is wittle Matty afwaid of a dare?" Nash says in a baby tone while laughing.

"Nah I just want to start this game out easy." Matt replies cockily.

"Alright, which girl here do you find the hottest? And here's the hard part. You can't say her name. You have to describe her as best as you can."

I just wanted to run out of that room and cry. I knew he was going to pick Carly. She's confident and beautiful. She has a smile to die for and she's hilarious as fuck. Everything that I'm not pretty much.

"Well, she's on the shorter side, she's a brunette, her eyes put you in a trance if you stare directly into them, her smile lights up a room, she's really shy and she acts like one of the guys but has a girly side," oh god. He was talking about Carly. It was obvious. I just wanted to run out of that room.

"Matty is whipped as hell!," screamed Cam.

"Guys stop. I just really like her okay. She's perfect to me. She doesn't see it but she is," Matt defends.

And that's all I heard before I darted out of the room and into the nearest bathroom. I locked the door and sunk to my knees and cried. I cried harder than I ever have. I'm worthless. Yes I know I might be over reacting but when you've been picked on for as long as I have, every little thing hurts. I really wish I had my blade.

I stopped my crying a bit when I hear rapid pounding on the door. Matt. Oh god.

I reluctantly opened the door and sobbed into his shoulder as he hugged me tightly. After locking the door, he put me down and wiped my tears. Then he pulled me toward him and we sat together on the floor.

"Talk to me Tori. What's wrong? Why did you run in here? A girl like you doesn't deserve hurt and pain like you've felt. Just talk to me please," he was begging at this point so I gave in.

"Matt, I'm just so insecure. I hate who I am. I hate being me. Carly doesn't have to try to fit in because she automatically does. When you were describing the girl that you liked, it broke me. I knew it couldn't be me because I don't have that effect on people. Like Natalia used to say, I'm an ugly, worthless slut who needs to destroy other people for attention. I can't keep living like this. I really just want to leave. End my pain. But I can't. Something is keeping me here a a I don't know what it is. Just help me Matt. Help me!" I screamed the last part as I was crying uncontrollably. Well now he's definitely going to hate me. I'm such a fucking desperate whore. No wonder everyone leaves me.

But what happened next was something I never saw coming. Matt kissed me. He picked me up and kissed me so passionately and with so much love. I felt a thousand sparks and butterflies and I never wanted that kiss to end. After a few minutes of this we parted for some air.

Then Matt pulled me to him again and started talking.

"Tori, you are none of those things that Natalia said. You're worth the world. I literally only met you a few hours ago but I feel like I've known you for my whole life. You change people. You have such a huge heart which is what makes you so vulnerable. But that's what I love about you. That girl that I was describing, it was you. It was you Tori. I am in love with you. There's just something special about you. Something no one else has. Please don't leave me Tori. Don't end things just because of one asshole girl who clearly isn't loved enough. Her words mean nothing. You're perfect just the way you are. You don't need to change," he was crying with me now. I couldn't believe it.

All those words made my heart explode. What I felt was indescribable. Matt gave me my reason for living. He made me feel wanted. I can never repay him for that. But I can't date him. As much as I need him in my life to fix all my broken pieces, I can't break him in the process. He's way too important to me for that.

Before I knew what was happening, we were kissing again. The same passion and fireworks were there. But it didn't last long before we joined everyone else again.

"Hey are you okay sis?" Carly hugged me tightly.

"I'm fine sis. Matt helped me. I just needed to breathe but I'm okay," I weakly smiled.

"Do you want to keep playing or should we call it a night?" Nash asked politely.

"Let's keep playing," I faked a smile and took my previous spot next to Matt.

We played until about 3 am. It was so much fun and no other problems occurred after that. Matt and I kissed a few more times, Brent and Carly became a couple, Carter grinded on Nash twice and Cam mooned a few neighbors. It was a great night and I was actually happy to be here in Virginia.

Nash and Lacy fell asleep cuddling on one of the couches and Cam and Jenny were on the other. Carly and Brent must have gone to Carly's room and Carter was passed out on the floor.

I felt a pair of hands pick me up bridal style and the person carried me to what looked like my room. Oh the person was Matt.

"Hey Matt," I smiled even though he couldn't see it.

"Hey beautiful. Get some sleep. I'll be in the other room," he said quietly.

"No please stay," I said quickly," I'd feel more comfortable with you next to me. I Uh, I get really bad nightmares. It's happened since the bullying started."

"I'm so sorry Babygirl. And of course I'll stay," his voice made me melt and I blushed so badly when he called me Babygirl.

He crawled into the bed next to me, shirtless, and pulled me into his chest. He rubbed my back for a few minutes and just hugged me. And that's all I remember before sleep took over me.