Drown

Chapter 13

*Matts POV*

So it's Matt here. Things have really changed in the past two months and man do I feel like a fucking dick. Basically, I told my once best friend that my popularity meant more to me then she did and now I beat her to the point where she's almost unconscious everyday. I feel like a complete ass and I really want to stop. But there's a problem with stopping. I think I should explain myself here....

The day Tori and I were at the mall we ran into my psycho ex and I told her off again. But after leaving the mall, I had this uneasy feeling in the pit of my stomach. I felt like I was being watched but I didn't do anything about it. I really should have though because later that night while Tori was sleeping, I received text messages from a blocked number saying that Tori is bad news and if I want to stay where I am in life then I need to drop her. Of course I ignored it in the beginning but my friends slowly ended up dropping me and I couldn't let that happen. Stupid, I know. But I did it. And here I am now. Alone and a jerk.

The guilt is literally eating me alive. I wish I never listened to those texts. I wish I had better judgement that day and understood that real friends wouldn't do something like that. But most of all, I wish I had Tori. I'm in love with her. I can't hide it anymore. She's incredible so it's hard not to love her. She has this amazing smile and bright blue eyes that mesmerize you, her laugh is toxic and her body is so fucking hot. She's the one. The one who has my heart forever. But I fucked up so bad and it kills me to know that.

After thinking about how much I've screwed up, I went to bed dreaming aboutTori.

The Next Morning

I woke up feeling exhausted and sick. But I had to go to school so I dragged my ass out of bed and hopped in the shower. I was only in there for ten minutes before I got out and got dressed. My mom had pancakes waiting on the counter for me so I shoveled them down my throat. I grabbed my penny board and made it to school where I ran into this blonde bimbo named Tiffany. She's so gross but she puts out so I make out with her from time to time. But that make out session didn't last very long.

I heard a locker slam and when I looked at the person who slammed it, I was stunned. Damn. Tori looked so fucking hot. I was fumbling with myself trying to speak but I could only manage a mumble.

"T-Tori?" God I stuttered too. I can't help it though.

She looked at me with pain and fear before tiffany attached her lips to mine again. When I finally got tiffany off of me, Tori was gone. I'm such an idiot.

*Toris POV*

Matt just stuttered my name and I felt so much pain. I longed for his touch but he ruined his chances the day he chose his popularity over me.

Tiffany is so gross though. It disgusts me that Matt lets her cling to him like that. And that's why I just walked away after the herpes session began again.

The first few periods went by agonizingly slow but it's finally lunch. I can't wait to shove a shit load of food down my throat. I'm so hungry that I could eat two whales and still want more food.

As I made my way out to my car to run to chipotle, someone ran into me. Now before conclusions are made, cafeteria food sucks ass and there's a chipotle close by. But anyways, Matt literally ran into me.

"What the fuck?! Watch where you're walking asshole." I wanted to punch him in the balls but screaming at him works too.

"Shut the fuck up bitch and just get in your fucking car before I make you eat pavement." I was curious as to why he wanted to talk to me so bad so I did what he told me to do and was joined by him.

"Why the fuck are you in my car?" I was fuming.

"Just shut up and drive the damn car. I'll explain once we get away from here." I did as told, again. I'm not sure why though.

"Okay now talk." I demanded as I drove further away from the school.

"Alright well I wanted to talk to you and I didn't want you to get hurt in the process so when I saw you walking to your car I followed hoping you were leaving the school. But-" I cut him off.

"So all of a sudden you care? Well guess what. I don't." He's such a dick.

"If you'll let me say what I came to talk to you about then you might understand things. I came to apologize for hurting you like I have. I hate the person I've become and I hate my popularity. It made me lose you and you were the best part of my life. The guilt has been eating me alive since this whole thing started and I needed to apologize. You don't have to forgive me because I wouldn't forgive me either but I'm sorry. I'm sorry that I was such a dick to you. I'm sorry that I made you change. But I'm mostly sorry for making you walk out of my life. I'm sorry." He was now crying and he jumped out of the car ad started running. We were already at chipotle just sitting in the parking lot but I have no idea where he's running to. I feel like I should follow but he's caused me so much pain.

What should I do?