Drown

Chapter 9

*Tori's POV*
After a few minutes of hugging, Matt wiped away his tears and mine. Then he looked in my eyes and smiled.

"Your eyes are so... Woahhhh. They're so blue and beautiful. I didn't even notice until now," I blushed so hard but I was hoping he wouldn't notice.

"Thank you. My eyes are the only thing I actually like about my face. They're always so vibrant and they change colors. When I'm upset or angry they get very dark and the little yellow ring that's probably in them right now goes away," I felt embarrassed explaining my eyes to him. I'm such an idiot.

"Well I think they're amazing. Just like you. I guess I just... Well... When I look at you and the way you approach people, I actually see myself. You're not the only one who's insecure Tori. I have way more insecurities than you think. I just hide everything from everyone except for Carter. When I look at you and Carly, it's weird because I can see Carter and I too. It's like you two are Carter and I in girl form. Maybe that's why I blew up at you so much. I like to take things out on myself without knowing I'm doing it and I think I just put you where I usually am and I'm so sorry. I really need to learn how to control myself," he doesn't even know how amazing he sounds right now. I didn't think we were this alike until now.

"Matt calm down. It's okay now. I forgive you. Now I don't know about you, but my eyes are about to close on me because I slept for a total of about 20 minutes so far. Can we maybe go up to bed?" I felt awkward asking this but I'm just so tired.

"I was about to ask that myself. How about I give you a piggyback ride up the stairs? It might be easier on you because of your leg," he's way too sweet.

"Yeah I'd appreciate that. Thank you so much. I'll carry my crutches while you carry me if that's cool," he just nodded and helped me get on his back. I grabbed my crutches and we began the tiring trip back to my room.

Matt and I didn't really say much while we walked upstairs. I was too tired and I'm assuming he was too.

Once we made it to my room, he set me down gently on my bed and placed my crutches by the wall. He tucked me in and was about to walk away before I stopped him.

"Matt wait. You can stay in here if you'd like. I know you're rooming with Carter but my bed is actually bigger than the one in that room. It's up to you though," ugh I'm so pathetic sometimes. I can't even believe my own words.

"As long as it's okay with you then sure," he smiled and I just nodded.

After he took off his shirt, he plopped into bed next to me. It felt so good to be this close to him. I don't know why but it did. Just as I was about to close my eyes I felt myself being pulled into his warm embrace. He's perfect. It's a good thing that it was only 6:30 am because my face is most likely bright red right now. I guess he thought I was asleep because he started whispering things as if I was.

"You're probably already passed out but I wanted you to know that you are worth it. No matter what happens I'll always be here for you. I'm going to be the best friend who saves you. I'll make sure you don't drown. Truthfully, I'm in love with you. I don't know how or why but I am. You probably don't feel the same and I don't blame you after today. But I'm going to treat you like a princess no matter if you love me the same or if you don't. Goodnight princess. I love you," he kissed my forehead and I felt his breathing slow down.

"I love you too Matthew. I love you too...," and that's all I remember before I passed out into a much needed slumber.