thought you saw light,
but it was forest fires
eating me alive
my limbs are dead and dry
-barren (nicole dollanganger)
maddie
stood in front of the mirror.
helpless.
staring at myself, tears rolling down my cheeks.
"i hate you," i whisper to my reflection.
i wish i wasn't her.
why do i have to be her?
i want to rip her to shreds.
i want to rip myself to shreds.
everything around me is foggy, black.
distorted by self-hatred.
corrupted by my reflection.
"i don't want to fucking be you anymore," i scream at the girl in the mirror.
i pick up my hairbrush and throw it at the mirror.
it explodes in a rainbow of tiny little shards, each catching the light as they fall to the ground.
better off without me.
i stare into the remains of the mirror, with its jagged edges where pieces are now missing. a tear-stained girl stares back. more distorted than before.
"i hate you," i say again, but with less feeling than before.
because really, hating yourself only has one end, doesn't it?
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beautiful broken things | billie eilish
Fanfiction"if she doesn't know im broken... she won't try to fix me." **trigger/dark themes warning** (lowercase intended)
