beautiful broken things | billie eilish

ilo without milo, all alone

im right at
the end of my rope
a half-empty girl
don't make me laugh,
i'll choke
-rose-colored boy (paramore)

maddie

im alone.

im weak.

i need the feeling of cold, solid metal ripping through my skin.

i need to watch myself slowly bleed out.

i need it.

it's there before long.

im curled up on my bedroom floor, crying a storm.

will i die tonight?

while the blade strikes again and again, i look up at my bedroom walls, whispering their words to myself.

where did you go?
i should know
but it's cold
and i
don't wanna
be
lonely

lonely.

loneliness.

just the idea of it terrifies me.

and here i am right now.

alone.

remember
not to get
too close
to stars
they're never
gonna give
you love
like ours

what love?

if there was love, i wouldn't be alone right now.

so show me
the way
home
even if it's
just
a lie

home.

there's only one thing left that feels like home, and that's billie.

said i couldn't love
cause i
might break
if you're gonna die
not by
mistake

i would fucking love to die.

death is never a mistake.

i can't stop crying.

or bleeding.

im completely lost, im drowning, and there's no one here to save me.