It's already junior year and I still hate it here. The only good things are my bestfriends, Jimin and Julianna, and my boyfriend, Hoseok. Tae eventually found out that we were together later in our freshman year. I've forgotten about my past with my dad but it still haunts me every now and then. I've been good, I love Hobi, my brother, and my besties so much. Me and Baekhyun finally have a stable friendship again but I'm still holding a grudge against him, he did some things that I can't forgive.
What are those things? You may ask.
That's a different story for a different time. Right now I want to talk about how great I'm doing in school.
All the teachers love me, I'm one of the top three best students in the school and on top of that I have the best boyfriend in the world. I know weird. Me and boyfriend just don't go together. Who would've ever thought that I'd find the one and now in so happy I love Hoseok so much.
3rd pov
You were sneaking out for the third time this week to see Hobi. Your mom was so oblivious to your relationship and Tae helped it stay that way. She still thinks that none of your past was true and her knowing that Hoseok is your boyfriend would really give her a reason to believe herself more. So she doesn't know about your three year relationship with him.
He helped you out of your window and you guys walked to his car. Once in, you lean over and kiss him tenderly.
Y/N'S POV
"Hi baby" I move back.
"Hey princess" he caresses my cheek, me leaning into his palm. I bite my lip.
"Where to?" I ask excitedly
"Just sit your cute ass there and see. How about that?" He bops my nose as he smirks and starts up the car. I let out an exaggerated sigh and pout.
He looks over a me and pinches my cheek. "Don't make that face, can't I suprise you for our three year anniversary" yes. He wasn't lying. It's already been three years and we're lasting. There's still those times when I would have my moments. So our intimate relationship was nonexistent but who could blame me. I was raped and manipulated over and over by the man who was supposed to be my father. Abused. Lied to. And most of all.
My mother still thinks its a lie. And that's what hurts the absolute most. Not even believing me. Doesn't know how I feel.
But to be honest. I don't care what she thinks anymore. I have my brother who literally witnessed it. And I have friends to help me forget about it so I don't care about how she sees me. See me as a fucking liar. ok fine by me, think what you fucking want. I'm living my life now and for once I feel at peace.
I was too lost in thought until Hobi tapped me on the shoulder because I was so dazed out.
"Wh- huh?" I question him.
"Are you ok babe?" He asks with genuine concern in his eyes.
"Of course" I force a smile, shifting my gaze away from his. I'm not ok, it doesn't matter if I lied to him he saw right through me. He hated that I could never fully open up to him. Why I didn't let him touch me and why I got scared. He wanted to know why but he never pushed the topic.
"Good. Anyways we're here" I finally realized my surroundings. It was dark out and all you could see was the bright neon lights reading "Cinema" illuminating the night.
"W-"
"It was where we had our first date, I wanted to bring you here because this place holds special meaning" he looks deep into my eyes. "I love you Y/n." I tremble at his words. I hope he wasn't lying, those words were always lied to me. how could I believe him.
"W-why?" I ask in small voice
"Because I do" he grabs my hand and hold it in his "You're amazing in so many ways" he kisses my hand. "I really do love you Y/n I would never doubt it for a second. You will always hold a special place in my heart" I start to tear up at his words. He grabs my face gently and wipes my tears with his thumbs, softly kissing all over my face. "Don't cry it doesn't suit your beautiful face" he chuckles. I just stare at him. Wow, I'm so in love.
I bite my lip to hold in my tears and then smile genuinely. "Gosh" I breathe out. "I love you so much" I kiss him again and again for who knows how long. I loved this boy more than words could explain I'm so glad that he feels the same.
"Come on" he starts to get out the car," don't want to miss the movie"
"Yeah" I let out in a shaky breath.
The movie was over and we were just sitting awkwardly in the car. I decided to say something, breaking the silence and the staring contest.
"What now?" And before I know it he's just staring at me. "W-what?" I ask. He gets closer. He cups my cheek and rubs it.
"No-nothing. You're just so beautiful, I love you so much" he gets closer and I nervously bite my lip.
"N-no I'm not" I tremble. "I'm not beautiful"
"Yes you are baby" he kisses my forehead and then my cheeks and then all over my face and last on the tip of my nose. "Everything about you is breathtakingly beautiful" he lifts my chin and stares into my eyes. Searching for an answer. "Why won't you believe me baby"
"B-because" I close my eyes and breathe deeply. "I can't get over my past it hurts"
I admit. "It keeps haunting me"
"What baby, what is it" he pleads with his eyes. "What's holding you back, what happened to you"
"My dad" I tremble. I can do this. "M-my d-d-dad h-he" tears start falling down my cheeks. He wipes them away. And whispers reassuring words to me.
"Its ok, just let it out" he kisses my cheeks over and over.
"I-I can't. I can't do it"
"You're strong. It's ok, you dont have to tell me, just know that I'm here every step of the way and I love you so fucking much" Hoseok says. But that's what they all say, that's what they all lie about and then leave me all alone. So why would this be any different.
"I just want to forget, help me forget" I stare into his eyes pleading. Hobi grabs my face in his hands wiping away all of my tears. He leans in and the closer he gets the more my heart rate increases. His lips land in mine and he kisses me softly. I tremble, another tear falling down my face."J-just help m-me" I close my eyes. I grab his face and rest my forehead against his. I kiss him again and again. Loving the feeling.
"Are you sure?" Hoseok asks.
"Yes. Just make love to me" that's all. I just want to get over it, I want to be free from my past. So that night, Hobi took me to his place and made love to me.
And for the first time, I felt loved...
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