Infinity and beyond

Windows

It had been a few months since I got out of the hospital. I moved in with David after he adopted me. Joe visited me almost weekly. Making sure I was doing ok.

I hung out with the cast of stranger things and it a lot more. And Noah seemed to disappear off social media. No one had heard from him in a while. Not like I cared.

But to be honest, I did. I mean he was my first love. I'd always love him. Even though he made some really shitty decisions. Wish I had figured that out sooner.

I hadn't talked to, or seen Jack or Finn in a while. But I wasn't surprised. They hated me now. If only I could go back and just explain what happened. Maybe I'd still have my best friend, and my boyfriend.

Today was no different than the rest. I get up everyday and eat breakfast. Watch a movie or 2 on Netflix. Eat lunch. Go on social media for a few hours. Eat dinner. And then go back to my room and have some alone time.

Usually I watched YouTube, but today I decided to try and contact Finn.

I make a backup account on Instagram and posted it on my story. He blocked me so he wouldn't see it. I then go on the account that was growing by the second.

I search up his account and try messaging him.

Me: hey...

Now all that's left to do is wait.

I open my journal and start writing.

Journal entry #152:

So today I finally tried contacting Finn. I miss him so much. He's my other half. I need him. He was what kept me going. I mean I have friends and family, yes. But he was my anchor. My light in the darkness. He was my person.

Without him I can barely function. I just want my best friend back.

A ding comes from my phone. My head pops up and I stumble over the piles of clothes all over my floor to pick up my phone.

Oh my god he replied.

Finn You

Finn: What do you want?!

Me: I wanted to apologize. Even though it's probably too late. I'm sorry that I fucked up. I'm sorry I let one stupid thing someone said get to me and let me let the 2 greatest things in my life slip right through my fingertips. I was so ignorant back then and ignored my problems instead of facing them. And I guess I still do... but if you don't want to be friends again I understand. I ruined your relationship with Sophia and didn't do anything about it. And I cowered and tried to kill myself instead of trying to fix things. So if you want to just block me, it's ok. Cause I deserve it.

Typing...

Please don't leave me...

Finn: You tried killing yourself...?

Me: Yea... You left me... I thought I had no one because my best friend in the whole world left me... I didn't think I had anything left... I thought I was alone... I felt alone...

Finn: God I'm so fucking stupid...

Me: No you're not Finn... I was the stupid one... I should have told Sophia and Jack the truth instead of letting them think that we were together.. this is all my fault.

Tears slipped from my eyes. I needed him.

My thoughts are interrupted by a bang on my bedroom window. I think it's just the wind from the storm blowing a tree branch into the glass until it happens again. I turn and see a soaked Finn standing on my little roof.

I rush over and open the window allowing him to climb in. He closes the window and turns to me. At this point I had rivers coming from my eyes. I fiddle with my fingers.

"God just come here!" He pulls me into a tight hug. I hug back tightly and cry into his already wet shirt.

He picks me off the ground still hugging me, and I wrap my legs around his waist. He sits on my bed and I sit in his lap still holding onto him tightly.

"I'm so fucking sorry. I should have stayed with you. I should have been there." He says into my shoulder.

I pull away and look at him to see he's now crying too.

"I'm just glad you're here now." I say before hugging him again. I place my face into the crook of his neck. He mimics my actions.

David opens the door to see who I was talking to, only to see me and Finn hugging and crying. He smiles softly before closing my door again.

"How's Sophia?" He asks softly.

"She misses you. Wishes she didn't do what she did. Have you talked to Jack?" I ask pulling away to look at him.

He shakes his head.

"Sorry no. But I think he has a new girlfriend now. I think her name is Sophie." (You know who you are and you're welcome)

"Oh. Good for him." I say looking down.

"I'm sorry y/n."

"It's ok. Besides. I'm still waiting for my Prince Charming." I smile softly.

He chuckles and hugs me again.

"I've missed you so much best friend." He whispers into my shoulder.

"Me too Finnigan. Me too."

I got my best friend back.

A/n: so I'm listening to 80's music rn and "time after time" by Cyndi Lauper just started playing ;) if you know stranger things than you know.