Broken

Part 3

"So I have a few people to say hi to, relax and I'll be back in a little while. Then we can dance." Kendall winked with a smile. There was nothing but amazing in him, he wanted to spend time with me. Why did I get so lucky?

"Okay." I sweetly returned the smile. Kendall left and I turned back to my friends. I saw Lucas sigh and grabbed a drink. "What are you doing?!" I yelled seeing my friend drinking beer. I was shocked this was not something I would ever expect from Lucas.

"It's a party Rowan." He looked right through me and I was confused.

"So?" I questioned my best friend.

"There's nothing to do besides drink." Lucas said. It's not going to hurt." I rolled my eyes at his comment. Why was he doing this?

"He's right I guess." Sabrina grabs a drink. "Want one?"

"No." I turned it down, I knew better. Sabrina and I stared at each other as she cracked the beer open. I never thought my friends would do something so stupid. Sabrina had drank before. We were thirteen and my parents left us home alone. She got into the champagne and I couldn't stop her. In her defense she had just found out her dad cheated on her mom when they were married. She promised she would never do something that stupid ever again.

"Alright then." Sabrina said wiping her mouth.

"You guys are being idiots." I said thought maybe it was me that was the odd one out. Everyone was drinking. Now my friends? Did I need to drink to be popular? That I didn't care much about, but what if drinking was the only wait to get Kendall's attention?

After a while the party was getting louder and drunker. There was more people and the bathrooms were full. The food was raided to no surprise. It looked like a parade came through here. Kendall still hasn't stopped back over. I only seen him once in the past hour. Could he really have that many people to say hi to? I know he's popular but it's not even his party. It's Bridget's and she is drunk dancing half naked. What was Kendall trying to do making me wait here. I wondered if he asked any other girls here just like me. My thoughts were running so fast I needed some kind of distraction to keep my mind off of him.

My friends we're not helping. Lucas was two drinks in and Sabrina had three. She wasn't even slightly drunk but Lucas was. He must be a lightweight. If that's what it's called. I watch way too my shows. I haven't decided if I was going to drink or not. If I did it was going to be when Kendall returned. I didn't want him to think I was a kid anymore, but I also didn't want to be drunk at all. There was nothing fun to me to party like that.

"I'm going to the bathroom." Sabrina said and left the room. I looked down at my phone as the battery notification sign came on. Great.

"She f-finally left." Lucas slurred. He was clearly not in any condition to be drinking anymore.

"You've had enough to drink." I said grabbing the cup and pouring it out in the nearby trash.

"Why did you have to like Kendall? What's wrong with me" He looked at me lost and my face soften as I stared at my friend. I was speechless.

"Oh Lucas. I-" I really didn't know what to say.

"You what?!" He expressed his drunken anger. "You didn't mean to lead me on for a year before telling me that Sabrina liked me?" He looked heartbroken. I didn't mean to do this to him. Sabrina told me a while ago she thought she had feelings for him. I told Lucas so he could act on it. Sabrina deserved to be happy and I thought he would forget about his crush.

"I love you Rowan. I've always been here and I always will be but you ruined me!" That hit me like a knife. I really hurt him.

"Please Lucas." I pleaded, "Let's just talk!" I had tears in my eyes. I was responsible for all the pain you could see in him every time he talked about his crush. I didn't know that the crush was me.

"No! Enough talking! I'm sick of talking!" He grabbed my face and kissed me. A wave of shock filled me. I didn't even have time to process it before Sabrina came down the stairs. She stood in shock as Lucas pulled away and looked at me.

"How could you?!" Sabrina cried at us with pain in her eyes. Oh my gosh.

"Sabrina! We didn-" I tried to explain.

"Save it." She wiped away her tears and took a deep breath. "You know I like him and you do something like this?" Sabrina yelled as I tried to speak but she wasn't having it. "I didn't even want to come here Rowan! I did it for you! So you could have the boy you like!" She cried.

"Sabrina-" I pleaded once again. I can't lose my friends.

"How could you?" Her voice breaks as tears fell from my face. "The last person ever suspected to let me down was you." Sabrina looked me in the face before slapping my cheek hard. I was speechless. "Don't talk to me anymore." She ran out of the house.

I held my cheek wiping my tears with my other hand. I couldn't believe she slapped me. It wasn't even my fault, why isn't she mad at Lucas? Before today we have only fought a couple of times. It never went this bad. I blamed the alcohol, it made Lucas go crazy and kiss me and it made Sabrina hit me.

We've argued over clothes, movies, friends, parents, money but never over guys. The worst we've ever had was the seventh grade food fight. Sabrina had told me something that wasn't true and I got mad. We were eating lunch and I decided she should be wearing it. We broke the whole school out in a major food fight and ended up laughing our heads off in detention. Our fights never lasted for more than a day or two. I hope this one isn't any different and that we can put it behind us but I don't think that's the case. I was scared but angry at the same time.

"Rowan-" Lucas said sobering up after everything that happened.

"I can't believe you." I went to go after Sabrina when Lucas stopped me.

"It'll make it worse. Let her chill out. Find her tomorrow and apologize." Lucas said reasonably. I knew he was right. "Look Row. I'm sorry. I will tell her it was me." He started to apologize.

I didn't want to forgive him yet but I felt bad because he was right before the kiss. "I got caught up with my feelings. I shouldn't have drank but it hid the nerves I was too scared to tell you how I felt." He explained.

"It's okay Lucas." I grabbed his hand. "You need to go home and rest. I'll see you tomorrow." I hugged him.

"What about you?" He asked me concerned but still somewhat buzzed.

"I'll be fine." I said wanting to be alone there was no way having him here now would me me feel anything but nervous. He left after a minute of protesting and I sat down on the stairs.

I was beginning to decide if I should stick around any longer or not. The party was still going but all the early workers and drunk off their ass people were leaving. It was nice that the party wasn't as crazy.

"Hey cutie." Kendall said tapping me on the shoulder.

"Hi Kendall." I blushed. Knowing that he didn't forget about me made me happy. I know a lot of girls would probably have gotten mad or left but not me.

"I got you a drink." I looked at the cup.

"It's not beer is it?" I asked.

"Of course not." He smiled and I giggled and drank it. "Wanna dance?"

We started dancing and I laid my head on his chest feeling so wanted. I never felt like this before. I really liked this boy. This was the magic moment I've been waiting for all night. We danced for an hour we laughed, joked around, talked. I was waiting for him to kiss me. I wanted it so bad.

"Want another drink?" Kendall asked me as we took another break from dancing. I was really shocked he wasn't pressuring me to drink beer. I was getting really nervous though.

"Yeah." We went to the table.

"We should go somewhere private so we can talk." Kendall smiled rubbing my shoulder.

"Yeah definitely." I said but was scared. I didn't want him to think I was a bad kisser. I remembered what Lucas said. "Drinking hid the nerves I was too scared to tell you how I felt." One drink won't hurt it'll numb the nerves. "I think I'll have a beer." I gulped possibly regretting my decision later but it wasn't going to hit me that hard. My friends were drinking so I can too.

"As you wish." He left and went and got me the beer. We sat outside on the steps and drank.