Broken

Part 4

Trigger Warning - SA

I sat on the steps outside with Kendall laughing and joking around. Everyone was so loud inside it was crazy. I was glad to get out of there before it got any crazier. It's anything but my kind of scene. People were so wasted and it was getting late but we didn't care. This was a once in a chance moment sitting here with the most popular guy in school. I couldn't waste this moment. I wanted to know him better. We spent a lot of time talking. I took a sip of my beer I was drinking it really slowly. I didn't want to be drunk, I wanted to take the edge off so I was making it last while. Kendall on the other hand got up and refilled his drink twice. I could tell he had a high tolerance from the little I knew about alcohol. Mostly from my Dad and uncle Shawn lecturing me and Sabrina when they found out she got drunk. They were worried. I'm really lucky to have a great dad and an awesome uncle. My family is the best.

When he came back we talked about my fight with Sabrina. "Are you going to apologize?" Kendall asked me wondering what I was going to do with her.

"I think I will. I don't think it was my fault Lucas kissed me, but I shouldn't have led him on." I sighed and felt really bad I didn't want to upset her.

"You shouldn't" Kendall mentioned. "If she's your friend she will believe you when you tell her you didn't kiss him." He told me not to worry about her feelings because I did nothing wrong. I didn't think I was all wrong but I still worried about her she's my best friend.

"What if I led Lucas on?" I knew I must have.

"You can't lead a guy on." My eyebrow raised. "We know when you're interested or not." Kendall said taking another sip of his drink. I wondered is that why he asked me to this party? He knew I was interested by the way I looked at him?

"You do?" I asked wondering how.

"Yeah it's pretty obvious, You stare at me in art class." He laughed and I was so embarrassed.

"I-" He put his arm around me and I melted.

"It's cute." Kendall smiled sweetly.

Kendall thought it was funny Lucas was into me and I didn't return those feelings. I didn't think it was so funny, I felt bad but I guess I can see his point of view. I think he just wanted to take my side to get on my good side. It was working he made me feel better about the situation. I liked that he cared or seemed to. I felt bad about talking so much about myself so I turned it on him. We talked about his childhood and how his brother passed away. I had no idea, I don't think anyone did. His brother was older so no one knew any of this. It was really sad, he got into some bad stuff and took his own life in jail.I couldn't imagine something like that happening to my own brother.

"I'm so sorry Kendall. I wish I could do something to ease your pain." My heart ached for him and his family. Kendall was broken up about this and I wanted to help him.

"It's okay, It was a long time ago." He looked down I could feel his pain.

"Not it's not okay. It's horrible." I hugged him softly. I could spend forever in his arms.

"I'm glad you understand." He said as we pulled away he was looking at me.

"Other people aren't understanding?" I asked him with concern.

"No they judge me and my family." Kendall opened up to me. I was surprised he was opening up to me so much. My school is very gossipy. If he used this to get in girls pant than it would be all over school. I knew it was just to me and I felt special.

"Anyone that judges you for that doesn't deserve to have you in your life." I smiled at the gorgeous man in front of me. Sabrina was wrong about him. He wasn't some player. Kendall was very sweet and considerate. He's a real person with feelings. I felt like the girlfriend fantasy I had could actually be a reality. He seemed like he really liked me. Why else would he tell me all of these things?