As I lay in this bed, All I feel is my heart
My heart is beating like no other has felt before,
Inside all I can feel is tingling and butterflies,
I've never felt more alive in my life to be honest,
I've been scared of what I'm feeling, but I feel free,
Free to be happy, to have sorrow, to feel pain,
And the feeling of love it's self
The light shines down on this feeling , and it feels like forever,
I can't help but wonder, why me?, a girl who thinks she is useless,
How can she feel, the feeling of love?
It won't go away not ever,
I hated myself so much, but yet I feel this for another person,
The feeling of being scared, nervous and terrified is new,
I've never really thought nothing of my emotions,
All I saw was darkness and black, and I needed saving,
But I saw the light, I saw myself in a mirror, and what I saw was pure hatred,
A person looking back at me with no existence, no emotions just pain,
Pain of even being alive, The torture it was unbearable, Might I say
But it all changed I became happy and started really seeing the world,
Existing to people, making them smile and happy, brought me joy
Joy I haven't felt in a long time,
But this feeling for another person,
Might I say feels good, and brightens my day,
If he knew how I really felt, would he feel the same?,
Everyday I think this,
And I still don't know, maybe in the future he would feel the same,
I use to feel such hatred,
for everything in this world but now, I truly see how beautiful,
And ugly it is
This world is full of good and evil,
The true evil is in ourselves, some don't express it,
And some do,
This world I have made friends and found love,
But can never say it,
The fear takes over but yet I feel happiness,
Within me,
And I am thankful everyday, for my life
~I do truly feel alive~
