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84:PBB

PBB HOUSE

"Natanggap ako"

"Huh?"

"Sa PBB natanggap ako"

"Co…congratulation"

"Aren't you happy for me?"

"I am"

"You're not!"

"I am, really. Pero kasi—"

"Lets go, I'll take you home"

I'm afraid Zeth. Masaya ako para sa'yo totoo 'yon but I'm sad for us. You might meet beautiful ladies there, sexy, rich and a girl that will really suit for you, while me? I'm just an average girl you meet somewhere, not even on a memorable place. I'm not even beautiful, the only thing I have, is my love for you. I'm nothing compare to them, I guess?

Huminto ang sasakyan sa harap ng bahay namin.

"Razel…"

"Hmm?"

"today will be our last date"

I can't find any words to utter.

"Papasok na ako bukas sa PBB house"

Tumango-tango ako and I did fake a smile.

"I guess I can't stop you? Hahaha ingat ka dun. And uhm… don't forget me. Ma… mauna na ako."

Tumalikod ako. Binuksan ko ang pinto ng bahay. I stop, when I heard him chuckled. Tiningnan ko siyang muli at totoo nga.
He's really cute when he does that.

Ginulo niya ang buhok ko. Yumuko siya para pantayan ang mukha ko.

"Papasok lang ako sa bahay ni Kuya, Razel. PBB is just a house… a house I will live in for a while, and home, it is where my heart belongs, and you're my home Razel. Don't forget that, you silly."

Malapad ang mga ngiti ko sa labi habang pinapanuod sya sa TV with his adorable smile. I'm really into this guy.

Ngunit nawala ang malapad na ngiti sa aking labi. Another housemate came in. Napalitan ito ng pangamba at muling pagkatakot. That lady, she's beautiful. Too beautiful to be real.

"Do you have a girlfriend?"

Zeth smile and pause for a moment. Ramdam ko ang mabilis na pagtibok ng puso ko.

"Yes. Her name is Razel"
———

I smiled for the nth time, after watching that video from a year ago.
Shinut down ko na ang laptop at inubos ang coffee na in-order ko, habang tinitingnan sila mula sa malayo. They were both happy, smiling from ear to ear.

The pain's still here. Why did you choose the house over your home? But then I realized, I may be the home where your heart belongs, but I'm not the house you'll live with for the rest of your life.