14 Things... (Dipper Pines X Sick Fem! Reader) [Completed]

Chapter 5: What He Didn't Get To Say

(Important song^)

Dipper's P.O.V
(Few Days after the funeral)

It's been a few days since (Y/n) death they already had the funeral on which I didn't attend. I couldn't bring myself to go but I finally decided to go visit her grave. I took a Rose and started walking in the direction of the graveyard. As I got there I felt a heavy presence come over me I walked in the direction of her grave. The sky that was once shiny started to cloud up. When I got to her gave it looked plain just like her hospital room. "I know you can't hear me..." I started to say "But there's something I didn't get to tell you" I said as it started to drizzle "Well actually there's a list of things that I wanted to tell you that I didn't get a chance to.." I took a deep breath after saying this. "I love you to (Y/n), every time we video called you smile made my day, getting to see you beautiful (E/c) eyes I always felt lost in them" tears started to slip down from my eyes. "Your gone now and you'll never get to hear anything I'm saying to you" I laughed bitterly "I could have sworn I seen you walking in the streets a few days ago, I almost ran to the girl and hugged her" I soft sob escaping my lips after that sentence. "Why did you have to leave me!" I yelled "Why did you go... you were to young to leave..." I was sobbing extremely hard at this point. "You had you hole life ahead of you!!! Why didn't you fight!!! Why didn't you!!!! Why didn't you tell me sooner!! Why didn't you tell me!" I yelled at her grave before I fell to my knees "I know it's not your fault and you didn't want to hurt me, but it hurts more because I didn't get to spend time with you" I whispered. The rain was getting harder by the second making my mood drop even more "(N/n) I love you and I miss you I can't even bring myself to delete the app we met on..." I took my phone out of my pocket and looked at the app. "You k-know I-I texted yo-you the other d-day... I th-thought you would t-text b-back.. that this a-all was j-just..." I couldn't stop the tears running down my face or the sobs escaping my lips "j-just a sick joke!!!!" I yelled all the pain I was holding in was just pouring out into this moment right now. Everything felt fake nothing was real time had stoped and I was just in this moment with the dead love of my life. She was in my arms when she died! I couldn't take it this couldn't be real she has to be alive please I need her to be alive! I was screaming in my head hitting her grave stone thinking that would bring her back to me. "(Y/n) please come back to me I can't live with out you" I said into the wind "please" my eyes were red and puffy and my cheeks were tear stained. "I love you, please don't leave me... I need you here your my light, my life line, your my... my best friend! My only friend! Please you said you wouldn't leave you promised! You promised when we first met you wouldn't leave!" I need her here with me I can't do this alone this world is cold and cruel and takes the most important people alway! The youngest people who shouldn't leave yet she should still be here. "Please don't leave please I'm begging you don't leave me (Y/n) please come back" she wasn't here to hear my pleads but it was worth a try. I stood up from her grave "here's the list of things I didn't get to say" I said looking at it

"1) I love you
2) Your the best thing that happened to me
3) I will never forget you
4) You were and still are my life line
5) I fell in love with you because you where you
6) Your my best friend and no one can replace you
7) I don't think I would have came back to California if not for you
8) I will always love you
9) You always made my day
10) Your smile took my breath away
11) I always got lost in your eyes
12) You gave me the best hug I've ever gotten
13) I will always be your best friend
14) My heart forever belongs to you... my best friend"

I finished the last sentence and that's when it really hit me that she was gone and not coming back. "I love you" I whispered as I walked away from here grave. It was pouring and I had no umbrella so I walked in the rain but I didn't go home. I mindlessly walked around until I came to a park Mabel and I came to as children. I went to the swings and sat down and that's where I stayed. I thought about how I lost the love of my life (Y/n).