Yesterday, October 14th 2019, we lost our beautiful angel named Sulli. She passed away at around 5-7PM KST. It was not a happy news for me, indeed it's a very shocking news for me.
The moment that I heard the news, I was so broken. At first I thought people was joking about it so I was about to get mad and say that stop spreading fake news because why the heck would you make a fake news on someone's death right? Plus, she is an artist. But before I did that, I search her name on google and it turns out, medias already spread it around.
Imagine, I'm a fan of her. Do you think I would believe such a thing? To me, all of that was a lie. I did cry but not that much because I still thought that the news were fake but after I fell asleep (due the stress) and wake up again, I checked the social medias and turns out it really do. It's real.
No. I wouldn't want to believe it. I don't want to believe it.. I don't know if I'm awake or not right now but why do I feel like this is such a dream? You guys must be lying right?
...I've been crying a lot for the past few minutes. My eyes are heavy. I cant sleep. I feel like I'm going to start crying again. She does not deserve to die. She did not deserve to recieve such a lot of critism. She is just a person. She is a human. Why does her body matters to you? She is her. Why did you treat her like that?
Sulli, I wish you were placed in somewhere peace. Somewhere that no one would disturb you. I hope you will be happy up there. I hope you dont have to worry about anything now. I know it's hard for you to survive in this universe but now, you dont need to worry about anything. Go live up there peacefully. You may rest well now. I love you so much Sulli. I couldnt describe the love from me to you but just so you know, I really love you Sulli. I really do.
My heart is in pain right now. I feel like my chest clench so hard and it is painful. Hearing the death of my idol really pains my heart. I cant believe this is happening. I'm still in between trusting it or not trusting it.
Res in peace to our beautiful flower. We love you.
