Sometimes, make people happy is better than our own happiness
It is a pain to see how happy they are because I am jealous
I want to be happy like them too but why can't I
Why is it so hard to be happy?
I might seem happy but I don't inside
Fuck this pain
I wish them to get the fuck outta me
Depression ain't cool bro
Anxiety ain't either
No, all mental health sucks.
You might be asking
"Why don't you just meet a doctor and talk about it?"
"Why don't you talk about this to your parents"
Shit no, hell no I ain't do that
Why?
This fucking society sucks
Living in this society, having people to be close-minded about mental health sucks
One time, I saw this news said that a student commited suicide because of stress they've been handling
And some of the comments was like,
"Dude, of course life in a school is something that'll make you stressed out. Look, I do get those stress but I ain't killing myself like these kids. I'm still alive because of God. I know where I am belonged too-"
And bla bla bla
All those things about religion
Like fuck you?
Do you think EVERYTHING will be okay just because of a fucking religion?
"Pray to God, read bible, you wont get stress"
Bitch, that's not how it ends.
Do you know how much I was in pain?
Do you how painful it is to have mental illness?
Do you think it's easy to get rid of it?
No, fuck you dude
I hate my life so much
I hate everything in my life
I hate myself
I hate every single thing about me
I hate the people
I hate everything.
Let just say, I rather die than living.
People say it's wonderful to live longer because you can achieve so much things in your life
Rather than wasting your life with nothing
Then, let me die.
Why the fuck I would want to spend my life with pain?
I don't achieve anything at all
My life is a waste
Fuck sake I never want to live
I want to kill myself
It's scary, yes I know
But like I said,
I rather die than live in pain.
