I think,
The feelings that I want to feel,
It disappear on it's own.
Thinking about relationships,
'M afraid,
Afraid that,
My heart will shatter again,
Like my heart is a piece of trash,
I have feelings too..
Used to,
I don't know where it went,
I guess I don't believe in it.
I want to,
To feel how it actually feel,
But I cant,
I know I cant,
After the breakdown,
I feel emotionless than ever,
Except being happy or sad,
Or maybe angry,
But I never have,
The feelings of butterfly in my stomach,
I don't want to experience it though.
I cant feel love,
I tried but I cant,
That stupid 'crush' thing,
I lied,
I never happy about it,
I fucking hate myself for lying.
