Thoughts

Chapter one

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The thoughts in my head are logically my own

But the thoughts I have said come from the unknown

They keep shaping my life

Trying to make me something I'm not

How do I make them stop

How do I make them cease to speak to me

Cause all the noise has clouded my brain; I can't see

They're drowning me

I try to reach the surface to take a breath

But each wave comes down harder

I find I just want to greet death

But No! I can't think this way

It's illogical, stupid some can say

I can't do this

I have responsibilities, friends, and family

But sometimes I feel they'd be better off without me

Lead happier lives

Just a few more goodbyes

And I'll be done

So long hope you have fun

This world is so idiotic

That it's driving me psychotic

Just wanna grab the shotgun load and cock it

Wait No. that would leave a mess

Don't want to put anyone's OCD in distress

Too much do I think about dying

Because I feel this life I live ain't mine

But then this isn't my life to waste

It's someone else's they just hit copy and paste

Ctrl+a ctrl+c ctrl+v

They're the ones in ctrl, not me!

They're the ones who get to pick and choose

What goes on whether I win or lose

And these battles that are left to me

I do agree

They are mine to fight

But I can no longer see the light

Down at the end of this tunnel

I feel like I'm falling down a never-ending funnel

Spiraling down into these thoughts

That tie my mind in knots

Can't think

Can't see

Can't even breath

Is this even me

This person I see

Staring back through my reflection

So far from perfection

Oh No! There I go again

Disappointing those around me

WILL IT EVER END!

Can't even say sorry

It's overused

I admit I have abused

This excuse I don't know anything else

Except maybe just blame it on the elves

But that's irresponsible

And I no longer care!

I'm a disgrace

A disappointment to everyone in this place

And I can't just change face

I'm happy a ditz

A sunshine

But does anyone even notice

That this personality is not mine

I'M NOT FINE

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I mean I'm ok

I'm sorry for wasting your time today

I'll just smile and wave

One more life the paramedics couldn't save

This is the first one I wrote and I only just finished it so I thought it fitting to make it the first chapter of "Thoughts". Don't be afraid to comment, I'm usually in trouble and am currently not supposed to be on any electronics unless I'm doing homework but I'll try.

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