xNataliex
As we headed off to bed, I just couldn't get something out of my mind. I know this is gonna sound strange, but the more and more time would go by, I couldn't stop thinking about what Simon said about Zayn.
Yes. I did say I hated him. I did say he was the last person I would wanna be with. But I was not sure if being away from Zayn is what I wanted anymore... I mean, after what Simon said, it changed me. It made me realize. Maybe he had something all along. But it wasn't to cheat on me. But I'm still curious as to why he said that... Did he want to break up? Was he mad? I just didn't know anything anymore. Nothing made sense anymore.
"Hey um, Courtney?" I ask. Courtney turns picking up a pair of pajama pants.
"Yeah Nat?" She asks. I sigh.
"What if I told you I might have feelings again," I mumble fast. She looks at me curiously.
"feelings for what?" She questions.
I sigh and walk around a little. "you know" I sang.
Courtney looks at me like I've gone crazy.
"Natalie, I've got no idea what you're talking about!" She adds. I look at her and look down at my shoes. I wasn't sure how to put this into words for her.
"Natalie? Is everything okay?" Courtney asks cautiously, She takes my hand and sits me down.
I nod and swallow. "Yeah, it's great.. It's just-" I say quietly and pause.
"What? C'mon Natalie we are best friends! You can tell me anything!" Courtney replies
I look up and stare at Courtney.
"R-remember how I told you I hated Zayn?" I ask.
She nods. "Well..I don't." I say. Courtney looks at me curiously.
"Anymore," I added.
She smirked. "When did this happen?"
"After what Simon told me well..Zayn..but I was fake Zayn so it was technically me, that Zayn always thought about me and couldn't stop no matter what." I explain. Courtney looks at me strangely. "But what about what he said on T.V.?" Courtney asks. I stand up and nod.
"That's what I don't get most! If he likes me so much, why would he even say that?" I ask. "Its like he's got two different sides!"
"So what are you gonna do now? Talk to him?" Courtney asks.
I put my hand through my hair and groan. "I don't know, I just don't know anything anymore! I feel if my mind is going into space" I say quietly.
"Well what happens when you two started talking alone after?" She asks.
"Well.. This is how it happend.._"
|| FLASHBACK ||
Just then Zayn walked in and hung up his coat.
He Imediatley looks at me and I look away. "Natalie" he calls. My eyes filled with tears again. He came closer to me and I stood up still looking away.
Courtney and Niall looked at us curiousley.
"Natalie please, can I talk to you?" Zayn asked as I walked to the fridge grabbing a can of ice-tea and slammed it down on the counter.
"Sure" I said in a semi- rude tone leaning on the counter.
"Look Natalie about the conference and not us being able to make it-"
