The Screeching Banshees

Not Myself Tonight

It had been almost two weeks since Josie was attacked and since she ended the blossoming relationship with Nikki. It was difficult seeing him every night backstage and not talking to him or engaging in a kiss or two but Josie remained firm in her stance that she wasn't gonna get involved with a taken man no matter how much it hurt. It didn't help the fact that he openly hit on the numerous groupies that would be backstage though she suspected it was more to get her jealous and to once again use someone for his own gratification.

The Banshee's continued to pick up steam now they had just as many sometimes more fans running to them after the shows asking for autographs and pictures. All the attention was new, exciting, and a little scary for them but it wasn't completely unwelcome.

As for getting signed the rest of the Banshees talked it over with Josie about still going with Electra considering the tension between her and Nikki they didn't want her to see him more than she have too. Josie simply stated that they would have to work alongside people they either didn't like or get along with so they decided to stick with going with Electra.

Of course the rest of the Banshees flocked around their sister after the attack. They always made sure she was okay and was up for doing the shows and performing. Josie appreciated her bandmates and managers concerns but it was starting to get a little annoying. She wasn't made out of glass and she had been through worse things than this. Plus the soreness of her body and her bruised face were getting less and less evident. The Banshees still hung out with the Crue after shows but now it was a little awkward given the tension between Nikki and Josie. Whenever he tried to catch her eye she simply diverted her glance and talked to someone else.

Josie hadn't completely ignored him she still exchanged pleasantries with him but as far as any kind of conversation like the ones they had before the attack that had all but ceased much to Nikki's disappointment.

Though it bothered her when Nikki would vanish with multiple women and she had on more than one occasion heard noises of passion coming from his dressing room she buried her feelings by her writing which occupied her mind to the point she could put up with it.

Still though she did her best to keep it from getting to her Josie was a little annoyed how indifferent and nonchalant Nikki was acting about her ceasing things. As if those conversations and the time they shared meant nothing to him. If he really wanted her as much as he claimed he should be fighting tooth and nail for it. The fact he wasn't only reinforced Josie's thoughts that she was just another woman for him to toy with to make her think she meant something more to him than she actually did.

Josie was tired of lingering on what could have been, those moments, and those kisses with Nikki Sixx. Her conversations with the others the morning after her attack had been replaying through her mind. Brooklynn, Lyra and the others were right. She was a beautiful, attractive young woman. She wasn't gonna dwell on Nikki anymore she was gonna enjoy their increasing popularity and everything it had to offer.

Josie was gonna take what the others said to heart about having fun. Did that mean she was gonna sleep with anything that had a dick between its legs every night? No, but it did mean she was gonna let loose and enjoy the company of a man even if for one night. It had been a while since she had had sex and she missed it. She missed the feeling of a warm inviting body next to and against her. She missed the feeling of pure euphoria during that blissful moment of release. She missed feeling desired and wanted by a man. Nikki had made her feel something she hadn't felt in a while but he was off the tables since he was involved with another but that didn't mean she was gonna deprive herself of the pleasure of sex no matter how much she wanted it to be with Nikki.
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It was one night in Washington during another off day that Josie approached Lyra who was sitting on the bench engaged in the current month's cover of Revolver magazine.