The Screeching Banshees

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Josie woke the next morning in an unfamiliar room memories of the night before came flooding back. She smiled to herself more than pleased with the previous night's events. Kurt had been nothing but gentle with her and patient with her. It had been forever since she had enjoyed sex and the touch of a man. She had missed it immensely and last night had reawakened the dormant sexual desire she had though Nikki had reawakened those feelings. Actually acting on and engaging on those feelings last night had been nothing short of amazing.

The others were probably wondering where she was at the thought of the others a smirk made its way to Josie's lips. She was a 110% sure that Vince after he sobered up had told Nikki about her being with another guy. The thought made her feel good powerful even that Nikki Sixx would get a taste of his own medicine as far as making her jealous with other woman and that he couldn't always get what he wanted.

Josie deflated slightly thinking of what she was thinking had she really slept with Kurt simply to get back at Nikki and make him jealous? How did that make her any better than him if she did? She wasn't a vindictive or vengeful person by any means but a part of her wanted him to know what it felt like. Had she really used Kurt for that reason?

She genuinely did like Kurt and the sex was amazing but he wasn't Nikki. Josie fell face first in a nearby pillow and groaned loudly into it she couldn't even enjoy the afterglow of amazing sex because of Nikki!

What was it about this rockstar who slept with more women to the point he could qualify for the adult film awards that had her hooked?

She was broken out her thoughts by the door opening she looked up to see Kurt coming in with a bag and a two cup carrier.

"Good morning." He said smiling warmly.

"Morning." She said managing a smile and pulling the covers to her chest.

Why was she so shy all of a sudden when he had seen her naked last night?

"How are you feeling?" He asked sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Good." She said then sighed dropping the covers no longer concerned about her nudity. "Kurt...

"Last night was amazing but I could tell your mind was elsewhere most of the time." Kurt said.

She looked at him guiltily but he didn't seem mad or upset about it. He seemed compassionate and understanding.

"I'm so sorry." She said.

"You don't have to apologize I get it." Kurt said squeezing her hand. "I understand 100%."

"Still, I feel like I'm no better than he is." Josie said.

"You're not, you're better than he is." Kurt said comfortingly. "You're better because you actually care about others feelings and I get the feeling from you that you don't do this every day."

"I don't still I feel so bad." She said looking at him sadly.

"Don't I get it, I really do I was in the same position you were once." Kurt said. "I had a girlfriend who cheated on me and I cheated on her for revenge and so she could know how it felt when you gave your all and everything for someone only for them to stab you in the back."

"How did you feel afterwards?" Josie asked looking curiously at him.

"I felt like a major asshole because I used this sweet girl to get back at my ex." Kurt said somberly. "But she wasn't mad and she understood it we parted on good terms."

Josie smiled through her tears and grabbed his hand. "I hope we can part on good terms too."

"Absolutely." Kurt said squeezing her hand. "You're an amazing woman Josie Mara and if Nikki can't see how amazing you are it's his loss and he has blinders on."