jeyjey's pov
benji walked out. right then and there. he just walked out. i wanted to call out to him. i tried to call out to him, but words just didn't escape my lips. i made some kind of weird noise, but definitely not actual words.
i just stood there. barely able to comprehend what just happened to me. i like benji. a lot. and i was surprised. he really did care about me, and not many people do. but i wasted it. i probably won't see him again, or at least long enough to talk to him, since he takes all measures to avoid me and there's only 1 month of school left.
i really did waste my only chance because my dumbass forgot how to speak for a solid minute.
i slowly walked over to benji's bed, plopping my body down on my side dramatically. i threw the blankets over me and grabbed one of the many pillows. i stuffed that pillow between my arms and rested my chin on it. it smelled like benji.
i stared to cry. tears streamed out of my eyes like they did frequently during the passed few months. i cried often. but what can i say i'm an emotional person, always have been, probably always will be.
i kept crying, physically unable to stop. the pillows were all getting soaked with my tears, but why would anyone care. nobody even sleeps in this bed anymore.
i started to wonder, where does benji sleep at night? he doesn't sneak in after i'm sleeping and out before i wake because i never sleep, i would've heard him. maybe he sleeps with a friend.
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hey guys. long time no see. i'm literally so sorry that i haven't updated in two months. this school year is so stressful but i'm sick right now so i have nothing to do lmaoo. also sorry this chapter is so short. anyways, love you guys so much, like always <3
