Sebastian's POV
As soon as Noah hit me in the jaw i knew for an instant I didn't have a chance against him. He wants her, like i do. But i can't have her. Should i really just shut down all my emotions to not get hurt like this?
Did she even noticed i liked her? I saw it in Noah's eyes that he loves her, is it bad that i love her as well. Is it fucked up that i want her by myself and take her away from my childhood friend? My emotions are all fucked up right now. Bella took Noah upstairs to calm him down.
"You see Sebastian, he was fighting you...for her! He preferred that bitch than someone who is basically his brother!" Peyton cried as she walked towards the kitchen. She didn't even bother to help me up, wow and i thought she said that because she cared about me.
I'm pretty sure Peyton just said that because Noah wasn't fighting with another guy for her. Even my sister doesn't love me, not even my parents. I held in my tears and clenched my fucked up jaw.
"Dude here got you some ice for that," James said as he handed me a bag of ice. I grabbed it and held it by my jaw. You should really stop being a nice idiot and start caring about yourself. I wonder if that little thought in my head is right or not.
Should i really stop putting other people before me, which in some way i'm always broken? "Look dude, Noah was fucked up for doing that shit to you. But i swear he loves that girl like he never loved any girl," Isaac said as i nodded slowly. "He loves her".
"Yeah i've noticed, but Bella and i are just friends," I said as Isaac nodded. I want to think we are nothing more than friends, i really do. James smiled kindly at me. I sat down and and stared out of space. Damn i haven't realized how fucked up my life is. Nobody ever loved me, i'm just an outcast. I don't belong here.
Being a criminal doesn't change that i suffer from life. Actually being a criminal helps me get out of my little shell. My thoughts got interrupted whenever the door flew open and Kyle walked in.
"Hello my friends, now where the hell is Bella!" Kyle hissed as Nick tried to get him to go outside. "Bro she isn't here," Nick said as Kyle burst out laughing. I couldn't help and chuckle at Kyle's face expression, but stop as soon as my jaw started to hurt. Holy shit that hurts.
"dude, i'm not a fucking idiot i know she is here, so get the heck out of my way," Kyle smirked as he walked passed Nick and walked upstairs. "Hey! what the hell Kyle!" Nick groaned as he ran after Kyle. I looked at James who looked amused.
"No wonder Bella is stubborn," Isaac chuckled as we all laughed. Not later Noah came downstairs with Bella. They both had huge grins, making me wonder why. Peyton sat next to me, complaining to me about what she said before but in Italian. I just simply ignored her.
I looked at their hands, and my heart fell. They are dating, it's too late now. Bella looked at me and frown slightly"Sebastian I'm really sorry, can I help you with-" Bella said as she walked towards me but stopped because Noah grab her and pulled her back to him.
I guess he really is jealous after all. "Bella we need to go and meet you're parents and explain them why you need to stay with me at night...and Sebastian I'll talk to you later," Noah said as he slightly glared at me. My heart shattered into pieces, it's suppose to be me and not him.
I looked at Bella and forced a smile."It's ok bells," I said. It's not ok, that should be me, the one who gets to meet her parents. "But Noah we barley started plus, he's really injured-" Bella said as she try to move towards me. "Bella, i said now," Noah said. She flashed me a small smile and left with Noah.
