𝑊𝑖𝑡ℎ 𝑦𝑜𝑢, 𝑊𝑖𝑡ℎ ℎ𝑒𝑟

Chapter (10) Couldn't tell me because?

Lhelani.

I don't know how or why, but me and Taía started talking again. Shay hasn't been too happy about it, said she didn't want to intervene too much. Although she refuses to talk to her, no matter what, she will stay with me when Taía is around. Concerned that she might do me something.

I haven't exactly told Kaé about it, but she's seen me talking to Taía on multiple occasions. Even though she hasn't said anything to me, I know she's feeling some type of way.

Kaé always talking about how she's going to ask me out and I just need her to hurry up and do it.

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I was outside Kaé's regular gym, waiting for her to finish practice. When Taía starts to call me, I decided to answer.

"Heyyy, Lani." Kaé says and I spin around still on the phone to Taía.
"Hey Kaé." Now directing my attention to the phone call "Lemme call you back, yeah. Bye Taía."
Kaé looks up from her phone and cuts her eyes at me. "Taía? Really?"
"We started talking again and she was just-" I tried to get out but was cut off.
"So you forget what she's done to you and me."
"I thought we could just leave the fight alone, I get you hate her. I don't think I do."

Kaé.

I forgot for a second that Lhelani doesn't know what Taía has been doing in her spare time. Giving Rochelle information and shit like that.

"I'm sorry I said anything. Thank you for waiting on me."

Lhelani.

What the fuck? She just stopped arguing just like that. That's not like her, at all, but then again we've never had an argument starting like this.

"Uh." I say as she begins to walk to the bus stop.
"You can go home." She states, her eyes locked onto her phone. I scoff and walk across the road to my bus stop and head home.

My bus arrives before Kaé's and I get on noticing that she's watching me. I try my hardest to ignore her but I want to understand why she was suddenly so standoffish. I'll end up finding out and probably not from her. I mean, I feel that she is holding back on a lot of things but I don't know how to bring these things up.

The bus journey was mostly me screwing people turning to look at me. Even when I'm all the way at the back of the bus, people still decide to mash up their necks to stare. Fuck off bruv. I turned my headphones up louder and louder each time someone turned around, until I needed to get off the bus. I got up and walked to the stairs and looked up at everyone that kept turning around. I put my middle finger up, kept on going down the stairs and then off the bus.

I couldn't help but laugh as I did so because all those people probably felt so much shame, but they can suck their mums.

Kaé.

After leaving out from my mom's workplace I decide to message Lhelani.

Lhelani😍🥰.

I wanna talk to you. Like on a serious note, I wanna explain somethings to you and I know you probably got questions.-
-Hmm, when?
Now if I can?-
-I thought you wanted me to go home and be away from you?
I didn't say that.-
-Hmm, come over then. You talk and you go unless you all of a sudden actually want to be near me.
I always do.-

After that message she aired me, I probably deserved it but she was right. I've been making it seem like I don't wanna be near her. I always wanna be with her though, sometimes my mind doesn't want me to get attached but it's a bit too late for that shit.

I go home to take a shower and pull on some black joggers. It's lowkey her favourite colour to wear, so I figured if I wear it I might have a slight advantage. Whether or not it actually makes her be less mad at me or not, I hope I can increase my chances by her hearing me out.

I need to explain to her about Taía without talking about Rochelle too much because again Shay hasn't spoken about it yet. Whilst in the shower I couldn't help but think about why her and Taía would even be talking so casually. Considering Rochelle and Taía's relationship is probably still something because me and Lhelani are still good. I wanna know what the fuck she's up to, I can't deal with guessing this shit.

I get the bus to Lhelani's house, to give myself time to think about what I'm going to say. If I say something off it's going to put me in hot water, so to speak.

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I knock at Lhelani's door and her little sister answers the door. She looks up at me and squints, "I've not been introduced to you. Are you Lhelani's girlfriend?"
Before I could answer her question, I hear Lhelani scream at her from the top of the stairs, "LEIARNA, move bruddah. This is Kaé, go and finish eating." She pulls me in through the door and begins to walk back upstairs.

If my heart wasn't beating before, it was definitely beating now and hard as hell. She sat at the top of her bed, using her pillows as a back rest and patted the space in front of her. I took that as an opportunity to take off my jacket and sit down. It didn't help that she wanted to sit face to face but it had to be done.

She waited patiently for me to start talking, "The thing about you and Taía talking was just me getting annoyed. You know because of the fact that she knows and is associated with Rochelle. Even now neither of them really like me and I guess Taía isn't the type to show that she hates me in-front of someone she likes."

Lhelani tilted her head to the side, "So you came here to talk about how Taía hates you?"
At this point I felt as if, she was burning holes into my face the way she was staring at me.

"I mean, I've noticed that I've been distant lately. Don't take it in the wrong way, it's definitely not anything to do with you. I just don't know how to handle it best, I've been in my thoughts about it."
She began to look confused, "And you think I can't help you? Why can't you tell me? If it's bothering you so much that you can't talk to me normally."

I felt like I was put in a trap, because I couldn't say what I really wanted to. All to protect Shay and Lhelani herself. All I could think of was hugging Lhelani, so I laid my head in her lap and placed her hand on my head.

She started to play with my dreads and I swear I started to float. Something about her hands in my hair felt good. I mean sex with her is amazing but it's not all that I like about her. Let me just ask her out already.

Lhelani.

I mean I was mad but how can I stay mad? She just dived into my lap and we just chilling now. I'm gonna ask her out, the fuck she playing at, making me all soft.

{Author's note: I mean I'm struggling but next chapter is something to read 👀}