“Trash like you should stay out of Anteiku”. I can’t believe those were the last words I said to him. Why in the hell I did that? I was excited to see him, I just didn’t knew what to say, I was too nervous and I never felt that way for a boy before, never. I never cared so much about someone besides Hinami. I never cared so much about someone at the point I risk my own life to bring him back, no matter what happen, no matter who I had to fight. At the end, it was him who rescued me.
Stupid Kaneki, you said you won’t leave. Why did you leave me alone? I wanted to be with you, I wanted to go with you. Why didn’t you let me do it? Why?! I miss you a lot, I miss you, I miss you, I miss you! I can’t get it out from my mind, you are always there, your stupid smile, the way how I felt when you touched my skin, all the moments we shared together. WHY DO I HAVE TO LOVE YOU SO MUCH?!!
Why…
Why don’t you come back? Don’t you care if I’m crying? Maybe you hate me because the words I said and the way I beat you that day. I’m stupid, I’m impulsive, you know that, but I don’t want to tear you out of my life, I want you be at my side, I want you to hold me, to care about me, I want you… to love me.
Pst… How could you love me after all I did? Everything I did was pushing you away. Maybe that’s why you left, and it’s all my fault.
Stupid Kaneki. Please come back… I need you.
*The sound of her cellphone ringing breaks the silence*
