19.HappyThoughts

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Logan's (pov)

I. Am. Crying. Metaphorically of course. Today is the day of Patton's surgery and I am freaking out. What if he thinks I'm ugly? Do I need to lose weight? I should start a diet. What if he actually does hate me? What if he walks out on me? Oh god. I hate these kinds of thoughts but when you are waiting outside a hospital room the love of your life asleep on your shoulder AND THE BIGGEST SURGERY OF HIS LIFE COULD POSSIBLY MAKE YOU LOSE HIM. You get a little paranoid to say the least.

"Patton Smith?" The same Doctor from before calls. I nudge Patton slightly. "Patton dear? It's time to get up." I say gently kissing his forehead. He yawns waking up and rubbing his eyes. "Already?" He says tiredly. I chuckle quietly and help him up he leans on me for the majority though since he won't be using his cane if this surgery works out. "You boys ready?" Picani asks. I look to Patton "You ready?" I ask he nods smiling brightly "Ready as I'll ever be!"

I. Am. Scared. SHITLESS! Pattons currently getting the surgery and I'm not sure what to do. "My god brother relax!" Roman who's sitting beside me next to Virgil says grandly. "Yea dude I'm less anxious than you. Woah feels weird to say that." Virgil adds "I know I know it's just.....In such a short time I feel like I've found the love of my life. I don't want to lose him because of how I look." I look down at my hands rubbing them together whilst tapping my foot trying to find something to focus on. "He won't care. I know he won't. When Patton still had sight he loved everything and everyone. He didn't care how they looked. When he went blind he was the same, loving everything and everyone. You'll be fine trust me on this." Virgil says leaning over to rub my shoulder. I must admit it's comforting. "Thanks." I say tiredly. I put my head in my hands and just. Think. About any thing, any thing at all. Oh I know! Mine and Patton's favourite date from when we first started dating.

~Flashback~
Walking around on a field filled with to many people and lights is stressful. But to many lights, to many people but it also being a date with a guy who can't even see the DAMN CARNIVAL LIGHTS! Is another thing. I sigh as Patton walks with a skip in his step arm intertwined with mine and his cane gliding through the grass. "You look beautiful dear." I say looking down at him. He truly did look magnificent. He wore a long sleeved blue jumper, white short shorts, knee high blue socks and white slip ons. "Thanks Logy! You know this is my first carnival? Oh is there a Ferris wheel. Oh Oh what about a game! We could win a cute plushie! Oh please Logie!" He begs. I chuckle lightly at how adorable he looks. "Of course come with me." This is going to be good.

"So close here throw another."

"The line is soooooo long are we almost there?"

"These crepes are delicious!"

"Can we get a picture for V?"

"The bands amazing!"

"I'm glad you brought me here."

"Can we go to the Ferris wheel now?" Patton asks. "Of course but aren't you tired? We've down everything." I say playfully he giggles a little "Pwesase Wogan?" He asks in a too adorable voice. "How can I say no to that?" I say catching his smile. "Yea!" He says smiling brighter if possible.

Patton and I finally get to the front of the line and I pay our placement on the wheel. I help him up and we leave his cane down by the bottom. He sits by me since he's not sure how he is about heights which is understandable. The ride starts up and he jumps slightly hugging my side. I place my arm around his shoulder out of habit. "You ok there pat?" I ask he nods slowly loosening his grip on me. "It feels like flying." He says dreamily I only chuckle at that "How so?" He hums in thought at that "The breeze, the way the wheel moves, just being here with you has my head in clouds." I roll my eyes as he laughs at his own joke. He settles down after a while and we sit in comfortable silence. We get to the top of the Ferris wheel and I feel him snuggle closer to me. "Pat~" "I love you." He said it. He really said it. "I love you too."
~Flashback~

Yea. Those were the good times. There must be many more to come. "Smith?" A nurse says walking out of Patton's room. We all stand up and look to her.
"He's ready to see you now."

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