A/N:I am so sorry I haven't updated. I just found the time. I stopped my homework for you be great full. Anyways, I am trying to pick a song for every chapter. This chapter's song is Scar Tissue because... You know. ANYWAYS. Sorry for grammar. I'm not using my computer like usual. ON TO THE CHAPTER.
Ashton's POV
Today is Monday. The worst of all days. That means I have to go through and ENTIRE week of school! School is horrible. It hates me and I hate school. Especially the people there. They do horrible things to me but I guess I deserve it. I woke up to my alarm blaring PTV because why not. I smacked around trying to find the off button until it stopped. After that I though I would be alone. But nope, mum walked in to wake me up this time. I hate Mondays, I hate everyday, and I hate life. I don't won't to go. No one knows this about me though. I might as well get up' I said to myself.
I got up out of bed trying to find clothes not bothering to take a shower. I did last night. I put on my skinny jeans (even though I'm not skinny), a ATL shirt and my jacket. It's not cold, I just don't want anyone to see anything. Everything I did took like 10 minute considering I didn't have contacts in or have my glasses on. I fixed my hair into the usual side swept style. After I was satisfied, I walked down stairs with my book bag. Mum smiled as she saw me. "Want any breakfast honey?" She asked. I thought about it.
'Don't you dare. You don't deserve it you fatass' It told me.
"Not hungry." I replied simply.
That was a huge lie. I was actually pretty hungry. But I am already fat enough so I don't need to eat. I don't deserve it. I am huge. Of course my mum doesn't know I feel this way. I love her but she is oblivious to just about everything. I made sure my sleeves were down. Mum asked why i always wear long sleeves. I always give her the same answer 'I'm just cold or 'I like long sleeves. She always believes it. Again, oblivious to about everything. I searched for my contacts and when I didn't see them I panicked. I already get bullied enough everyday. Now there is another thing to add to the list. Stupid glasses.
I sighed in defeat. I put my glasses on an headed out. I can drive buy I only do when I need to. The hell hole is only like 2 blocks away. It will only take about 15 minutes to walk there. I don't know why I have a book bag. Its not like I would do any work. I'm so fucking stupid. Even if I tried, I would fail. Mum knows I am depressed but she doesn't know how bad it is. She thinks it is just because of dad walking out on us. That doesn't really bother me anymore though. I have no friends and I hate my life. I gave up on trying to be happy months ago. There was no point. I have nothing for me. But I haven't given up on life itself yet. I've always heard from bands 'never give up' or 'never give in'. Although I try, I'm slowly giving up. I wish someone would save me from this never ending tunnel of darkness. No one will cause no one care. And no one ever will.
A/N: so that is just a little of what Ashton thinks. Should I continue or nah? I will update whenever I get the chance. With school and all it is so hard. I'm sure all other authors understand. I hope you liked this shitty chapter! I am hoping it gets better! Love you all! Kisses and hearts. Because over 500 views is a lot to me.
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Scar Tissue (Lashton AU)
Fanfiction"We stopped checking for monsters under our beds once we realized the monsters were inside of us." Ashton Irwin. A 16 year old Aussie entering his Junior year. Everyone either ignores him or bullies him to an extent. Other then the bullying, n...
