I Don't Understand - Namjin

7

"Namjoon? Namjoon!" I come round at the sound of Jin's worried voice. I open my eyes and blink under the bright lights, a sharp pain shooting through my head. Jin helps me to sit up and I grip onto him, never wanting to let go. We all sit there in silence, before I speak up. 
"We need to go to the staff room, find our form tutor. I'm fine - I swear, Jin, don't worry - really, it's got to the point where I'm not scared if teachers get involved. Jimin needs stopping." I say, my voice no more than a whisper. I struggle to my feet, and we all go to the staff room to find our form tutor. 

I tell him everything, how long it's all been happening, how I broke my ankle, what happened earlier this morning. I end it with "But Sir, please don't punish Jungkook and Taehyung. We've forgiven them, and they only did it because they were scared. It doesn't matter anymore, so please don't let them get into trouble. It's Jimin." 
"I'll take your word for it, Namjoon. You're good kids; all of you are." he replied. He scribbled out a note and handed it to Jin. "Go to the office - all six of you - and show them this. You can go home for the rest of the day, I'll find Jimin as soon as I know you're gone." 
"Thank you, Sir." Jin says, taking the note. 
"No worries. I'll make sure that all of this is put to an end, and if we have to get the police involved, unfortunately we will. Try to enjoy the rest of the day, boys." he says, and we leave the staff room. Jin hands the note to the lady in the office, and we leave the school. Just as we're all about to go our seperate ways home, Taehyung pipes up. 
"I don't know if you consider me and Jungkook friends, but can you all come round mine for a bit? There's still loads we have to tell you." Without even thinking, I agree. We take a slow walk to Taehyung's house, my head still pounding like mad. 

When we get inside, Taehyung gestures for us to sit down. "I think this is for Jungkook to tell." he says. 
"Where the fuck do I start? Well, I live with Taehyung now, because - " Jungkook starts sobbing. "B-Because my parents dis-disowned me. My own fucking parents. All b-because I'm gay! Tae's parents left town a while ago, s-so it's just us. I'd honestly be d-dead if it weren't for Tae. H-He's all I h-have..." Jungkook cries out, and breaks down. Taehyung pulls him onto his lap and hugs him as he cries. 
"You've got us as well now." Yoongi says softly, wiping a stray tear rolling down his cheek. 
"Y-You don't understand how much th-that means to m-me." Jungkook stammers. For the next couple of hours we chat about our backgrounds and other random stuff, until it starts to get dark. 
"We best get going." I say, and get up. "See you tomorrow." I go over to Jungkook and Taehyung and give them a hug. "Thank you for everything today." I whisper before moving away. 
"See you tomorrow." Taehyung says with a smile. Him and Jungkook see us out and we walk home. I say goodbye to Yoongi and Hoseok when we get to their road, and Jin walks me the rest of the way to my house. 

Jin hugs me tight when we get to mine. He tries to loosen his grip but I stop him, relishing this moment. 
"Please stay..." I mumble into his ear. "I can't be alone tonight, please, don't go.." I'm close to crying again, and I won't be able to bear being left alone tonight. It's only around 6pm, so even if Jin can't stay the night, he'll be able to stay with me for another hour or so. 
"Of course I'll stay. I'll text my dad - he's working late tonight anyway - but even if he says I can't, I will. I don't wanna be alone right now, either. Let's go inside and get you a hot drink, huh?" I nod and he leads me inside. He makes me a cup of tea and we sit on the sofa, Jin holding me close and making sure I finish my drink. I put the empty mug down on the coffee table and yawn, snuggling into his chest. We stay like that for at least an hour, until Jin stands up. He picks me up so he's basically giving me a piggyback, and starts towards the stairs. 
"What are you doing?" I ask, way too tired to struggle out of his grip. 
"I know it's only half 7, but I can see you're exhausted, and you'd just deny it and fall asleep on the sofa so I thought I'd get you upstairs myself." I just let out a small sigh and let him carry me to my room and place me on the bed. He instructs me to get changed and leaves the room to phone his dad. As I'm pulling on shorts and a huge hoodie, I hear Jin tell his dad that I'm ill and he's gonna stay the night to make sure I'm gonna be ok. Jin pops his head round the door and sees that I'm done, so he comes back into the room, still on the phone. I can hear what his dad is saying now. As Jin's about to say goodbye, his dad stops him. 

"Seokjin, can I ask you something?" 
"Sure, Dad, what's up?" 
"Is this Namjoon your boyfriend?" 
"Wha- Dad! I- " 
"If he is, I don't care. As long as you're both happy, I really don't care if you're dating a boy." 
"Yeah, he is my boyfriend. And thanks, Dad." 
"No problem, son. Make sure you both get to school safe tomorrow." 
"Will do. Bye, Dad." 

He hangs up. 
"You heard, didn't you?" he says. 
"Yeah. When you next see him, tell him I say thanks too." I reply with a weak smile, although it's replaced with a blank expression when another bolt of pain shoots through my head. Hot tears creep down my face. "Joon, what's wrong?" 
"Head.. Hurts too much.." I whimper. I grope for my bag and pull out a packet of paracetamol. I swallow two, but I'm too far gone to stop crying now. I curl up into a ball with my head in my hands and feel Jin dragging me onto his lap. He rocks me as I sob for a few minutes, until I eventually stop. I sit up, facing Jin. 

He cups my face in his gentle hands. 
"Namjoon, I love you so much." he whispers. 
He pulls me into a kiss. A sweet, soft, loving kiss. 
"I love you too, Jin." I whisper back once we pull away. He lays me down and holds me in a warm embrace, stroking my hair until I feel drowsy. 

"Sleep, my Namjoonie."