Her Conviction

EIGHT (unedited)

Yall wtf I got on here and I have 1k reads I've never felt so god dang loved also I came out to my Mom )))

Amelia

I won't lie I'm am someone who desires.. no needs to be in control. To feel as though everything is in its correct place, Lilah was uncontrollable she was like a rock thrown at my perfect glass house, sense I was younger I'd like things in my control all my toys set in certain positions every book on my shelf in a certain order by year it's made, alphabetic order,and color my mother said that's what would help me become a great leader but I like that Lilah is out of control. Lilah being out of control was something new and exciting, I never knew what was next. My life wasn't mundane anymore but full of cheer I needed her now and forever. I need her brother so she keeps me on my toes and blushes at little things I say to her. My anger was fueled by fear of her running

I continue my walk through the halls sniffing out my delectable little rabbit that had scurried off yet again. I wasn't even upset with her but more upset at the fact I could lose the trust we were building I could never tell her he is gone at least for now...

I come upon the portrait room to see my love staring up at the family portrait of mine from so long ago, she stared sternly at me as if trying to decide something. "Oh what is a small creature such as yourself doing in such a deep part of the palace?" I say sauntering over to her. Blush filled my Lillians cheeks when she looked over her shoulder to me.

"Your not very nice..."

Lillian said barley above a whisper before Turning around back to the photo almost as if she's to fixated on the picture to realize who and what she's saying...I liked it. I walked my way over letting my side graze hers, "I would have to agree with you on that rabbit... I am not very nice" she scrunched her brows looking at the photo. "You look like you wanna murder a puppy" she said her eyes still puffy from the tears she cried it made me feel stabbed in the heart "Who are the other people in the photo?" Lilah gestured at the my siblings.

"James and Olivia my brother and sister,"
Lilahs brows only furrowed more in confusion and her mouth opened slightly, "close your mouth you'll catch flies" I say with a smirk as her blush rises as she continues "We learned all about your family I've never heard about your siblings"  Amelia bit the inside of her mouth her nerves were not usually a problem but the explanation for this one was much more complicated, "They are no longer with us" I said calmly with a sigh staring at Lillian waiting for her response. "What ! I'm so sorry to hear I wouldn't have said anything if I had kno-" I put my finger to her lips "Never say sorry... they would have died by my hand either way. To decide which child heir there must be only one left." I said coldly, I haven't felt sad about it in over a 300 years today I wasn't gonna start. I removed my finger from her lips looking deep into tear ridden eyes.

"That's so sad!" She cried out which brought surprise to me when I had always forgotten how others could see it. She and I sat on a bench as she leaned into my chest for comfort, "Why would you do it?!" She said in a sob tone my little fragile rabbit was in pieces over this.

I took in a deep breath "I loved my siblings, but we all knew what we had to do my father was a viscous man unlike my mother and raised us all to expect to fight one another to the death. Olivia was the oldest I was second and James was youngest. Olivia died from a human so when me and my brother were left to fight it was the easiest to win but hardest to do.... I miss him dearly and can only hope he forgave me."

I said swallowing the lump that was in my throat that I hadn't notice until that moment. Lillians arms were then wrapped around my neck her tears dried onto her cheeks and her eyes and cheeks were puffy, but even while looking like a lost sad puppy she made my heart ,I thought to be dead, hammer in my chest as if I were a school girl again. She hugged me first and I wouldn't trade this moment for anything in this world. I wrapped my arms around her torso deeply smelling the fruity shampoos that were in her hair. It was so
Odd to me to feel like this when I haven't in so long. Even as a child my mother was the only one to give me attention and even then her attention always was never on me and more on her duties.

"I'm sorry" she whispered sniffling I smiled "I told you not to say that rabbit no matter what I will never need a Sorry from you" she nodded while still in a hug. It had always seemed as though are meals were interrupted by  her tears. "Come now Lillian let's finish a meal for you you need to properly gain back weight. Plus I need to get you in with a dress maker for the ball I'll be having you attend" I said trying to move on. I couldn't sulk on this even though it did get her to wrap her arms around me I want us to be more than pity love. I want her to love me because I drive her wild and because I'm the only thought that fills her mind. When she clenches her thighs because she's hot and bothered I want her to be imagining my face in between her legs helping her out.

  We slowly walk together back towards my office hand in hand while she slightly leans on me.

I love Lillian the girl who always kept me surprised

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Thank y'all for reading also have I said Ameilas hair color cause I found her face claim

Also I'm going to start dedicating certain chapters to thoughts who comment giving ideas on junk I was going to on this one but I guess the person deleted there comment but anyway it gave me the idea for this so thx