One fine day (Camren)

Chapter 36 - Spooning

Camila sit on the bed and Lauren is sitting on the chair facing her.

Camila started the conversation.

"Lauren, I wanted you to know that you are the only one in my heart. I hope you believe that. I know I made a lot of bad decisions... I am still learning this is all new to me so please trust me and I mean it I am sorry."

Lauren is listening. Fist tight. And just making deep sighs...

"I am really sorry for what I did. There is nothing between me and Shawn. Shawn is gay... And so am I... I believe and I learn to accept that. I told my mom everything about me so I can truly accept myself and will be able to show to the world and be proud of us... If there still an 'us'." Camila continues...

"You fucking hurt me Camila and you fucking broke my trust" Lauren burst out.

"I know that, that is why I am here begging you for forgiveness. Swallowing my pride just for you to forgive me and to come back to where we were."

Lauren stands up. Walks back and forth then looked down biting her nail. Camila keeps on talking and expressing herself... And suddenly Lauren stop in front of Camila and hold her cheeks then she kissed her.

Lauren kissed Camila so she can stopped talking. Lauren got something to say, she wanted to tell Camila that she was very hurt and still hurting because she still have feelings for her. She loves Camila.

On this kiss, Lauren express everything. She bit Camila's lip as a sign of hatred for what she did, for her to know that she is hurting. Then the kiss will change to soft and licking as a sign of love. To show her that she still loves her. A passionate french kiss to show that she really missed her.

Camila on the other hand just go with the flow, she kissed Lauren back with her whole heart. She misses Lauren's kisses so much and she is so overwelmed that a tear in her eyes drops. Camila understand everything on the kiss. They communicate through this passionate kiss. They will just stop to get some air and still continue with the kiss. Their kiss lasted for about 40mins just kissing passionately (for some this is making out) but for them this is how they communicate. They lie down on the bed still kissing and holding each others cheeks, hair, shoulder, back...

Lauren on top of Camila then Lauren stopped and lay down beside her.

They were both grasping for air. Heart beat fast. Camila looks at Lauren and hold her cheeks.

"I love you so much Lauren and thank you"

Lauren is looking at the ceiling. Looks at Camila and smile.

"I... I still love you too..."

But a tear drops on Lauren's eyes. Her eyes were sad and Camila notice it.

"Why are you crying?" Camila sked worriedly.

"I still love you Camila, but in my mind... I just can't love you back... It's so hard to trust you back" Tears continues to drop on the emerald eyes.

"Lauren, I promise you I won't ever ever break your trust and your heart again"

"Don't promise, Camila. Just do it"

Camila smiles and nod at her. She hugged her tight and smells Lauren as she really miss everything. Her hair, body, smell and the hugs.

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The two took a shower and went back to bed.

"So.. what are we now? Are we together again? Camila asked.

Lauren is so sleepy and just yawn at her.

"Can we talked about that tomorrow? I am so tired and sleepy."

"Ok. Just sleep my love and remember that I love you so much" Camila kiss Lauren's forehead and Lauren went to sleep with a smile on her face.

Camila just can't believe what happened. She lay down beside Lauren and hugged her while Lauren is sleeping they were spooning, Camila as the big spoon.

Camila can't sleep. Or she doesn't want to sleep at all because she can't believe what just happened. She thinks this is just a dream so she doesn't want to sleep.

Soon after an hour she closed her eyes and fell asleep still spooning Lauren.

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Sorry for the short chapter. But this is the highlight. Next chapter in about a week and this might end soon too. Thank you all for reading.