The Way We Were I + II

Chapter Thirty Two:I forgive you..I do.

A D R I A N N A 

I walked towards the cafe in silence.The closer I get to the cafe the faster and louder my heart starts beating.I felt like if my heart continued beating at this rate that it might as well just pop out my chest.I got to the door I stared for a second at it then took a deep breath and pushed open the door.He sat there.Right there.Waiting.Waiting for me.He's changed so much.he isn't the boy I was once in-love with,the little boy who was the reason my feelings for little Enzo started going away,the boy who made brown eyes my favourite,the boy who made me eat lotus ice cream.He's not that boy.Not anymore.

B L A K E

I kept waiting.Its been months since I've last seen her.I hope something will happen today.I felt a pair of eyes looking at me.I shifted my eyes from the cup i was observing and looked at her standing right there lost in her own thoughts.She then noticed me smile at her and she came out of her own thoughts and gave me a small smile and walked closer.I stood up to pull her chair but she stopped me.It broke my heart how distant we've become but what can I say it was my fault.

"Y-you wanted to talk to me?"she said as she stuttered a little bit.I could see she was nervous very nervous.I shut my eyes for a second and looked at her and i started nodding.

"Adrianna,Im sorry for everything.I know me probably talking about this won't bring you back because I've tried before,I also know crying won't bring you back because I've tried but I need you to listen to me just once more.A 'sorry' is said when a mistake is made but not when trust is broken.You trusted me and I left you during that time.I left.Im sorry for that.Adrianna,Im happy you and Lorenzo found each other I know see after months almost a year since you moved her that he gives you happiness I couldn't nor could I ever give you.But my god the way I loved you."

"Loved me?"

"Yes I loved you so much.So much.I do till this very day.But I'm not sure if I'm in-love with you.And I think its best if I don't find out because I can't risk hurting you.But yes I definitely loved you and very much in fact.I loved everything about you.I loved your ocean blue eyes.Your beautiful blonde hair.Your smile.Everything-I loved everything about you.Your the reason I loved blue eyes,the reason I loved  blonde hair, and the reason I smiled.My reason for everything good in my life.Adrianna don't let go of him.Promise me you won't because i won't forgive you for that.As selfish it might sound but I hoped everyday your relationship would never happen I really hoped but it did.Then I hoped for it to end but instead your relationship with him strengthened.You love him the way I loved you.And thats a lot.You will always be my first love I won't ever forget you and I won't ever forget the friendship I let go off."

"Blake,I promise I won't let go of him.I-I also forgive you.I won't hold on to something that happened nearly fours ago.You were my best friend once upon a time and i loved you.You weren't my first love but for a while I loved you. I did but i never told you because i Thought you wouldn't have felt the same way.I remember wanting to tell you during my 16th birthday party.But at that very moment Lorenzo walked back into my life and i never told you and maybe i should have and maybe things would be different but would It be right? I don't know.Lorenzo makes me happy and I won't ever let go of him I promise."

"Keep that promise."I said with a smile.I know I really do know we wont ever be best friends again but atheist i'll have her as something.Even if it might just be a distant friend but at-least she has forgiven me.

"Well then I shouldn't keep you here any longer.Thank you for coming Ill see you around Adrianna Agreste. Goodbye."I stood up and waved at her and walked out the doors I looked back at her through the window and saw her smiling as she was staring out in the distance and I smiled.I walked to my car and I pulled my keys out and I heard my key chain shake.I lifted my key ring up and looked at the chain on it.Adrianna gave me this chain a long time ago it was always with me I never went anywhere without it. I smiled at all the memories.I un-hooked the chain off and placed it in my pocket and I drove back to my house.

I went straight up to my room and filled out a box from my closet which had the following words were stuck on it 'B+A forever -Adri' I opened the box to be revealed to many photographs and stuffed animals and toys and notes and drawings.It was everything i had left from our friendship.i took the chain out my pocket and looked at it for a minute I smiled and safely placed the chain in the box and put the cover back on.I grabbed a marker from my table and wrote on it "forever and always,Adri -your blakey"I smiled at it and felt a tear slide down my cheek.I smiled and wiped it away and placed the box back into my closet leaving all the memories in there for some other day to be opened again or maybe never again who knows.This might just be the end of the chapter not the story.This might be the end of the book and there might be a sequel right after it.No one knows.No one but i trust my destiny ill be fine we will both be fine i know it.