Inside my mind- A diary

Pt 9: lost kid

Little boy went off to explore the world, not knowing what was lying ahead of him. Through his ride, he addressed things that were new for him: darkness, secrets and lies. All of those things that he never really understood, for his heart was pure, totally unaware of the evil surrounding him. But if you put a lost boy in an evil world, you can't be too surprised. He was the boat, and the world was the ocean. He had no other choice but to follow the waves, the waves that destroyed him. The waves that drowned him with fear, frustration and hatred. He tried to go against the waves, oh he tried, but he never succeeded. Everyone judged him, constantly blaming him for everything that happened. He was officially the bad guy in every story. Sadly he was always at the wrong place in the wrong time. He lost all hope. For his pure heart that didn't want to hurt a soul, started getting hurt itself. As the days moved on, things got worse, and the little boy put himself in very bad and dangerous situations. He looked up to the wrong people, to the bad people. Just like the audience gets fooled by magicians, he got fooled by the evil world. He was tricked into believing that "this is how you become a man". He fell into every possible trap. But from every trap was a way out. Until one day, he fell so hard, that he couldn't see a way out. Suddenly the beautiful sky went blurred, it was far away. So he stayed there, accepted his destiny in the darkness, and it swallowed him whole. Now, he was not only physically traped, but also mentally traped. His mind was the prison, and he was the prisoner held in it against his will. What would the little boy do now? He did what he was best at doing, disappointing everyone around him. He was not an evil boy, he was just a scared boy, who was let down by this messy world way too many times. Can you blame him? Can you blame a boy, who played with toys, who grew up in a bad place, who had no choice, but to move with the waves that forced him to the darkness? For in the end, he was a lost kid, who tried to explore, oh little did he know, that he would end up being destroyed.

// Love X ❤️