Inside my mind- A diary

Pt 5: Betrayed

Today I felt betrayed by one of my closest family member. Lets call that family member Emily. So me and Emily are cousins. Emily is my closest cousin since waaay back.
Today she did something that made me question our "friendship". And I felt so let down by her actions. At the same time, I couldn't see myself getting mad at her. I didn't let my anger out. Instead, I acted all normal and happy. I will talk this trough with Emily soon, but I feel like now is not the right time.

I think what hurts the most Is that if I were to sit in Emilys position, I would not have done the same thing towards her, never. And that shit really made me think..

It made me think of how much of a good person I am. It made me realize how pure my heart is. Even when she betrayed me, I was kind. I know this is stupid, and it may even seem weak. "Don't take my kindness for weakness bitch". But I won't take her shit for too long, I promise I will talk this trough with her. Because I know my worth and I know damn well that I did not deserve what happened to me today.

I don't like to make people feel sorry for me, because there is nothing to feel sorry for. Everyone in life has struggles. And everybody struggles in different ways. Some people has it worse, some people has it better.

To anybody out there who feels betrayed:
You are an amazing human being who deserves the best of the best. Never settle down for less than you deserve. Never take shit from anyone. I know it may seem hard, but in some cases, being lonely is better than being surrounded by fake people who clearly only care for you in certain situations, and forget about you in others. Just know that everything is going to be fine. Everything happens for a reason. Remember that a persons true colors come through when they are put in a hard position. And if their "solution" includes hurting you, then you should start questioning your relationship with that person. Because that ain't a healthy relationship. A person who truly cares for you and loves you, would never hurt you on purpose.
You're a boss ass bitch, own that!

Thanks for reading guys! This time i wrote a longer diary, hope you enjoyed it.
Love/ X ❤️❤️❤️