Into the mind of me...

Friendships

How do you know when a friendship gets to much? I have this one person in my life who is my best friend. I've known him for years. Suddenly he's been getting clingy, but not normally. He would wait at my chair for me during marching band breaks, durning lunch and he follows me everywhere like a lost puppy. But after being friends for that long, I've never seen anything like this. I just wonder why. Ever since my relationship took off, and he began his own, I've been his main priority. Not his girl, me. Simple, small, no filter me. Is there something more that's going on? Did I give him a wrong signal somewhere along the line? He's been my brother since the 7th grade, so how do you tell someone to back off? I'm not one to feel uncomfortable, I usually don't care and so low key about everything, now I'm the one feeling uncomfortable, stalked, watched. When you are put through a hard choice, there are only too ways it can go. Really good or really bad. How do you just take a risk. I don't want to lose our friendship forever, but I need space. I value alone time. I hate being hovered over. He's being that one really shady helicopter parent. I can't even walk 10 feet to the bathroom. For once in my life, I'm almost out of words. I can bitch and complain all I want, but honestly it's not going to work. I can tell him how I'm feeling about everything, but if he's acting all weird how am I supposed to know if it worked. When I didn't tell him directly that I was in a relationship, he kicked me. I must sound insane, but for once in my life I'm afraid. Afraid of getting hurt, of being watched over, afraid of what will happen next. Now a days, anything could possibly happen. Everywhere I look he is standing right there. Every corner, text message, everything...always there.