Into the mind of me...

Exit

I live my life looking for exits. Always looking for a literal way out, just Incase. In my high school, I've mapped out how to get out of any situation. I have plans of what to do, just in case. I know every exit sign, I know every doorway. I just know how to get out. I live in a word where I'm afraid to use the bathrooms in school, just Incase I get stuck while someone is killing everyone I know. I never leave my friends on bad terms, just Incase that's the last time I will ever see them. Why do I...Why should I have to live like this? I'm learning how to live my life for the first now, but now it's in constant fear that someone is going to take it away. Every public space, I have to find an exit. No one is fixing anything. The people who are suffering most have zero say in any of this. There is this teacher in my school who brought 30 pairs of scissors for the school year, they haven't used them all year. Teachers are preparing us for the worst. Maybe if I had a pen I'd have good aim and just hit the person in the eye and stun them. Enough of a chance to get them with a pair is scissors. There have been so many copycat attacks so close together for the first time in history, and no one has even tried to stop them. My only advice is always know your way out, never be leave on bad terms, and always be kind. It doesn't take much to smile at someone. Just try anything to brighten up their day. You never know what they will do next. Don't do it to save lives, do it to be a good human. Words can kill. That one person who have been making fun of for your entire high school career is capable of anything. Don't provoke them. It doesn't take much to be kind to someone in need. Maybe if we started doing something out of the goodness of our hearts, this problem may be lessened.