Into the mind of me...

Found

I live in a world of people who complain. Everyone around me constantly has something to say. I'm never allowed too. It's always been how everyone else's problems are worse then mine. People who used to be my rock, aren't anymore. They can barely take care of themselves so why should my problems be heard. All of this has changed. Does it make me a horrible person to say I found a new rock? One who I hope doesn't hurt me. He's been my rock so far. While the rest of my world is drowning, in such a short time he brought it back up. I never have problems anymore, which is weird because I'm a walking, living, breathing problem. But he somehow has pushed all of that aside, and found me. He says he loves me for me and has proved it to be true in more ways then I think. I never thought that I would find anyone like him. Ever. I never was looking for someone to love, for someone to love me. Love is such a scary word to use. But with him it's not. He found me. It's just me and him now, conquering the world together. I find my self thinking constantly, do theses other people have someone as prefect as him in their lives? Maybe if they did they wouldn't come to me anymore. I love helping others more then most things. I love helping my sister. All of my best friends, but when it comes to my problems, it's as if they don't wanna hear it. Which I know isn't true, but their response is what makes me think that. He takes away my emptiness and loneliness which is what I'm so used to feeling. Which I didn't know was possible. I have found my self in love. At first I was in denial, I was so afraid to give my self  something else to think about. To think about getting hurt again, I didn't wanna worry anymore. I don't worry anymore. I'm letting my self be happy for once which is something I never do, he brings that out of me. He's brings so much out of me. I'm still the rock for other people. I will always be the rock for everyone else. But he found me.