Am I Not Good Enough? A Bendy x Sammy fanfic

Chapter 14.

My plan was a success. Susie was officially broken.

She was hardly the same person anymore. She was quiet and jumpy, and no longer made fun of me. Along with that, she was no longer snarky, or rude. Her eyes were dull and empty, and she would do anything I told her to at the drop of a hat. I hate to phrase it like this, but it seemed that I've... domesticated her.

Disgusting.

I found myself staring into a mirror that I found. I wanted to make sure that I didn't look suspicious before I took us back out to the open land. On my first glance, I could hardly recognise myself. My pupils were dilated, there were dark bags under my eyes, and my mask was more stained with ink than ever before. Once I cleaned off my mask with an old rag I found, I spent time trying to make myself look normal again. I thought of what others would think of when they think of me. Eventually, plenty of adjectives about myself flourished in my mind. From what I heard, I'm caring, babylike, heartful, gullible, and stupid.

How pathetic.

Practicing expressions, I eventually found something that looked decent. It was some stupid, cat faced smile plastered across a rosy cheeked face. It's as close as I can get, so I'll have to use it.

"Campbell, we're going back out." I told her, and cut through her ropes in one quick swipe with my axe. She looked up at me in pure confusion. "But you're gonna have to follow a few simple rules. I need you to act like the snob you once were, and call... Whatever that was with Bendy.... Off. Permanently. If you even slightly mess up these steps, I will not hesitate to murder you, because if I go down, you're going down with me as slowly and as painfully as possible. Got it, idiot? You were a so called actress before. It shouldn't be that hard." She stared up at me, and processed my request. After a bit, she nodded slowly in response. "Good. now show me your real face." She dropped her fearful expression and put on a scowl that was immediately familiar to me. I pulled her to her feet. "That'll do, angel. That'll do."

Without further delay, I took her by the hand and pulled her through the wall. I let go of her, and followed a few feet behind her to make sure she didn't try anything out of line. Just looking at her usual walk cycle made me angry. I still hate her. I hate her so much. I wanted to beat her to death right then and there, but I couldn't. Eventually, we both heard a voice call out to her.

"Susie?? Is that really you??" It was Bendy, from the closest room to her. She turned to look inside. "It is! Thank goodness you're alive! Come here, I want to talk with you!" Susie rolled her eyes, and walked inside. I snuck to the edge of the door, and peered inside. As soon as I saw Bendy, my heart rate increased drastically. I dropped my fake face, and felt normal again. I haven't seen him in such a long time, and he already made me feel like a somebody. He spoke again once she was face to face with him. "Where have you been? I made everyone look everywhere for you, and nobody saw you!"

"I was taking time to myself, Ink Demon." She snapped at him. He looked taken aback at her response. He opened his mouth to speak, but she quickly cut him off. "Anyways, I think it's about time I've admitted something. I hate you, and I always have." Bendy stared blankly at her as his facial expression dropped.

"W-Wait... Hold on, what are you talking abou-"

"I'm SAYING that I never liked you. All those interactions of ours were never close to genuine. I just wanted to see you suffer when I finally told you the truth." She snarled. I was enraged. How can she be so cruel? Once I looked at Bendy, however, my heart sank.

Bendy looked broken, to say the absolute least. His strained frown screamed absolute betrayal, and he looked more down than I've ever seen him. Suddenly, he clenched his teeth, and balled his fists, which were now shaking in rage. Black, inky veins spread across the walls, which only happens when he's exceptionally enraged or distressed. The last time I've seen these was when Henry broke in, wreaking havoc and murdering everyone he came across.

"Samuel?" He suddenly called out, seemingly trying to summon me. "I don't care where you are, or what you're doing. Come here, right. Now." I jumped, and ran into the room. Before I could say a single word, he grabbed an axe and shoved it into my hands. "Execute her."

"Wait, hold on, I need to say-" Susie started.

"Shut up." Bendy snapped at her, and shoved her to the ground. I slowly approached her, my hands shaking. I wasn't so sure I wanted to do this anymore. I didn't want Bendy to see me so violent. "ANY DAY NOW, LAWRENCE." He shouted at me, and I slowly nodded my head. Shutting my eyes, I slammed the axe down into her, over and over and over again. I could feel Bendy watching closely over my shoulder as she screamed in agony.

Eventually, I hit the floor. I opened my eyes, and she was gone. In her place was a puddle of ink. I turned to Bendy, who still looked enraged.

"B-Bendy, I-"

"Don't talk." He snapped, and stormed out of the room. I looked down at my hands, which were drenched with ink. I dropped the axe and ran to my sanctuary as fast as I possibly could. Once I was there, I locked myself inside, and leaned against the wall. Sliding down it, I came to terms as to what just happened.

Susie is dead. I killed her. Part of me was happy, no, ecstatic with this, but another part of me felt... something else. Like a pain in my heart, and a distaste for myself. I'm not new to the whole low self esteem thing, but this felt different. Like... regret. I closed my eyes, forcing myself to fall asleep after I promised myself to check on Bendy tomorrow.

What is happening to me?