not fine

golden

the ocean is a refreshing memory.
the sea breeze gently blowing on my face
as i spend dawn and dusk there,
watching the beautiful sight
of the sun rising and setting.

the ocean is a beautiful mystery.
how far does it reach, and how deep does it go?
and yet — the sparkling waters,
the crashing waves,
so breathtakingly beautiful.

the ocean was my home,
until you came and left
and ruined it all for me.

your honey voice always caused
a wave of emotions in my heart
but this time,
i've been swept away and i'm drowning.

i'm drowning, i'm suffocating,
i can't breathe,
i'm losing my mind —
where am i?

the sparkle of the water, duller
the crash of the waves, stronger
the beautiful skies replaced by the dark.

my life has taken a turn for the worse,
with stormy seas and choppy waters.
and yet i will still look back
on those gentle, happy days,

because i loved you
and i have no regrets. 

-

a/n

i wrote this in the car on the way to school one morning, a random burst of inspiration hit me.

i noticed that i use the ocean a lot in my writing, it's a beautiful analogy but the irony is that i am not a big fan of the ocean lmao

jane ❤️