not fine

numb

do you know what it's like to feel numb?
to feel nothing at all?

how about when you feel everything at once?
or what about in between
when you're aware of what's happening
yet so far away from it?

it's like a light at the end of the tunnel that never gets closer
no matter how much you run

or maybe it's the moon that's following you as you sit in the car
looking out the window
wondering if they're lost too

do you ever feel yourself just slipping away
everything gets darker
everything gets quieter

it's like the words on the receipts stuffed in your wallet for months on end
that end up indiscernible

or the final seconds of your favourite song
where everything fades out
and you're left with silence

what are you left with in the end?
what do you have?
what comes next?

nothing.