not fine

stop it

i'm tired of feeling this way
i'm tired of feeling so empty yet on edge
i'm tired of not ever having anything in order
i'm tired of letting my thoughts take control of me

i lay with my eyes wide open when the sky is dark
yet i don't remember anything from when the sky is bright
everything is such a mess when it comes to me
and i wish it wasn't

because i'm so sick of feeling this way
i don't want to feel so scared of everything anymore
this unstoppable powerful feeling that swallows me
i can't help it

the trembling the dizziness the nausea
not even being able to fucking breathe
i just want to be normal
i just want to be happy

so stop it
please

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a/n

:-)