not fine

3:47am

these unfamiliar hours have become my friend
they watch over me as i stare back at them

it's strange, how i used to fear all of this
uncertainty and vulnerability
that once crippled my mind
but now, i find comfort in this - i'm fine

i turn my pain and sorrow into words
that i carve into my skin
as if this would do anything
where do i even begin?

we were young
and we were lost
wanted to fill the void inside our hearts
no matter how much it cost

you said it would be a dangerous game of love
and i said that two could play
we've always had things rough
but please, could you stay?

i'm scared of what we're turning into
how will things end up?
will everything we've ever had together
just fall apart?

-

a/n

how i wrote this was that i write random words in my notes whenever they come to mind, and so this work came from 7 bursts of inspirations in the past 2 months and some sudden rhyming and organisations that was done in the last 20 minutes. just kinda felt bad for not writing again.

lots of love,
jane