A Heart To Heal (BL)

CH 3.1 - Aftermath (PA)

The next few weeks for Yuto were difficult. He couldn't cook their meals anymore because his dominant arm was fractured. He couldn't even do his assignments. He couldn't move from Nagisa's bed because any sudden movements made his concussion feel worse.

For someone who was so used to being productive and busy, not doing anything made him really antsy. Nagisa could tell that Yuto was miserable. He did his best to help him feel less burdened so that he could rest more. After all, Yuto had been putting such a constant strain on his body for so long, some proper rest might do him wonders.

Every morning, Nagisa woke up early so that he could go to the marketplace near his house to pack breakfast, lunch and dinner for them. He worked from home so that he could keep Yuto company and take care of him. Especially since his fear of other people had relapsed now, it was important to keep socialising with him.

Even if it was just him alone. He couldn't afford to have Yuto fall into the same lonely pit again. He didn't want to have to go all the way to square one again.

'I'm all he has. I can't have him going back to his old depressive state again' He thought as he waited for one of the vendors at the market to replace Yuto's old phone case with a new and sturdy clear plastic one. Yuto's phone didn't break but it was better to be safe than sorry.

"Yuto, tadaima,"He called out as he opened the door, slipping his shoes off. He could hear Yuto grunt in reply and his heart sank a little, feeling sorry for him. He put the food on the dining table before he opened the door to his bedroom. "O-okaeri, Nagi,"Yuto croaked weakly as he gazed at Nagisa. His eyes were watery and he didn't look too well. The man went to the bathroom and brought back a basin of warm water and face towel with him.

He sat on the bed and gingerly wiped Yuto's face, taking care to not jerk his right arm. He could tell that Yuto was sorrowful that he couldn't do much of anything for the next few weeks. When he was done, he pushed Yuto's bangs aside and kissed him on the forehead softly. "There, there. You don't have to worry about a single thing. I'll be the one taking care of you now, like I should've been from the beginning,".

Nagisa carefully untied Yuto's hair and helped him sit up. "You should let your hair loose for a while. It's more comfortable,". Yuto just hung his head quietly. He felt useless.

'All I'm doing is burdening Nagi. I'm such a useless boyfriend' He thought to himself, biting his lip.

Propping his pillows up cautiously, he left the room to get breakfast ready for both of them.

'I don't understand how people can sit still like this. I feel horrible and unproductive...'.

His arm that lay snug in a cast was in view. He still believed that getting injured was his own fault.

'I've been such an idiot....Now here I am troubling Nagi. I don't deserve him'. 

Just as he was about to lament to himself, Nagisa appeared with two trays of food. "Yuto~ I have breakfast ready. Are you proud of me?". Yuto looked up and forced himself to smile. "Yeah. I'm proud of you,". Nagisa's pouted and put the trays aside.

"My Yuto baby,"He cooed, cupping Yuto's face kindly. He wiped at Yuto's watery eyes lightly, smiling at him. "Why the long face? You don't like me taking care of you? Does your arm hurt you that badly?". The boy winced and his face was flushed. "I don't mind you taking care of me. But, I'm such a burden,".

Carefully pulling Yuto into a warm embrace, Nagisa creased his brow after hearing him say that. "You'd never be a burden to me. I love you so much. I'm willing to do anything for you,". Yuto hugged him tightly, nuzzling his face into his shoulder. "Come on,"Nagisa smiled, petting his head delicately. "Let's eat our breakfast before it gets cold,".