Love, Alaïa

Chapter 17- You're Hurt?

After all that's happened I have to motivate myself to get out of my room. Ignoring people and isolating myself isn't going to make me feel better nor bring Gio back. And today I can't miss school. I have to give in an assignment that is half my grade. I can't fail at school like I did at life.

                   *Gio's P. O. V *

I open my eyes and the first thing it lands on is a frame of Alaïa and I. I remember that day, we went to the park and she wanted to test out the new Polaroid that her dad got her. And I also remember she had just got her braces of the day before. Maybe that's the reason her smile is so wide. My little angel. How could I do that to her? I don't even cry but right now I find myself in a whole pool of tears. I wish she knows that I only did it to protect her and Keyya. How do I go on without seeing her smile. Maybe I should just call her. I'm positive she won't pick up. I look at my phone and well my lockscreen is me and her of course I regretted that moment. I've experienced death's and divorce in my life but none ever hurt the way losing Alaïa did. I dial in her number and then I realized she must be in school. Today is 30th and she had something due but I rather give it a shot. So I  dial her number and ' Hi this is Alaïa I'm kinda busy right now but I'll definitely return this later. For now, have a good day' was all I heard. For some reason just hearing her voicemail made my soul light up. She always had this effect on me regardless. I'll stop by her house later and if she doesn't believe me then I'll write her a letter.

                  *Alaïa's P. O. V*

I walk up to my locker and grab my chemistry textbook. I look at my little mirror and a broken and bruised girl stared back at me. I place my hand over my chest and I quickly removed my butterfly necklace. It's not special anymore. It may be to me but not to the one who gifted it to me. I sigh, thinking once again how much my life sucked and I spot Eli not to far away from where I was standing. I run over to him and I know he would just cheer me up. I wrap my arms around his long neck only to feel him push me of him and stare at me coldly.

"Elijah? ", I asked confused because he never treats me that way.

"Really? You're just going to stand there and play victim?", he asked signaling to his friends that he will see them later.

"What are you talking about?", I asked completely unaware of why he was mad.

"How could you lie to me. You knew all this time and yet you let me fall. What kind of a friend does that?"

"I honestly don't know what you're on about. Please tell me. I'm really confused", I say.

"You knew Keyya was gay. You found out right after I told you I liked her. But yet you still let me fall. I told her my feelings and she made it like a complete joke. She humiliated me in front of her so called girlfriend", he said. I could hear the pain in his voice.

"Im sorry Eli. I made a promise to Keyya. Your sexually is not something you just going on telling everybody about. She trusted me. I don't like to tell secrets, especially of those that trust me", I explain to him.

"What am I then? You think you can just toy with my feelings? Does it make you feel good on the inside?", he became angry so when ever he gets mad, he wrinkles his forehead.

"How is this my fault. I was stuck between two of my best friends. I had no other choice. I wouldn't choose because both of you mean the world to me"

" If you really cared, like you claim then maybe you won't be in this predicament. You could have just told me she wasn't into me and I could've have  moved on instead you left me to hurt"

"Hurt? Don't even talk about hurt. I've been through hell and back in this past few weeks and do you see me complaining? The person I cared about most in this entire world let me down and you want to tell me about hurt. I tried Elijah, I really did. Why do you think I said I wanted to go to homecoming with you? I knew that Keyya was going with Natalie and I know how bad you wanted to go so I gave up my own experience just so you could have yourself a date. I'm sorry if I hurt you Elijah and Im sorry if I deceived you but I really did it to protect both of you and I get it if you don't want to have anything to do with me anymore because at this point everyone I loved left so I can't do much now Eli", I poured my heart out and turn around to walk away.

"Gio left?", he asked softly as I felt a tear slip down my cheek. I turned around and faced him.

"How'd you guess", I say wiping my face.

"I-im so sorry. I-I didn't know. I'm sorry for blaming you, it just fraustrated me that you and knew and you didn't say anything. But why didn't you tell me about Gio? What did he say?", he hugs me.

"He broke all ties for the sake of his new girl"

"What? He actually traded you. The most important thing to him. He just threw you away?"

"Pretty much", I say holding back my tears. By now I think I have probably mastered the art of doing so.

"Come here. I didn't know", he pulls me into a thigher hug. "I thought my situation was bad but I didn't know yours was this messed up. Im really sorry Lai"

"It's okay", I lie. "I got to get going I'll see you later."

As I walk in the direction of Mr Cage's classroom somebody bumps right into me dropping my bag and books right to the ground.

"I'm really sorry", I say picking up my belongings without looking at who was responsible for dropping them.

"First your spirit and now your books. What's next to drop down to the ground?", the annoying voice of Ellies peered through my ears.

"What do you want Ellie?", I roll my eyes with her being the last person I wanted to see.

" You really think you were going to win? You're a fool Alaïa. Why would Gio even waste his time with you? Therefore I put him out of his misery by giving him a choice. And of course, he made a wonderful choice. Best decision of his life, by far", she gloated.

"I don't know why you hate me so much and why you want to ruin my life. But have you forgotten? The day when you wanted to end it all, I encouraged you to stay. So why have you turned into Stacy?", I ask gathering my stuff together.

" Just because you're Alaïa, it doesn't give you the right to know everything. Stacy and I are friends so this is just a little warning. Stay away from me and Gio. Neither of us want you around. Why don't you wife up your bestie keyya huh? Since she's into girls", she laughed again.

"You know, Ellie you're right. Maybe I don't deserve Gio. And yes I am Alaïa therefore I'll let you laugh now. I won't stay down where you expect me to be and frankly when I have the last laugh, trust me Ellie, it'll be the best. And so what if Keyya is gay? At least she has her life figured out. What do you have split ends and a disgusting attitude. You make me sick", I laugh and I'm pretty proud for standing up for myself. She's not like Stacy, she's worse and I'm tired of giving 100% and getting nothing. So from this day forward, I'll let no one take advantage of me. This is my life and I'm in control of if. I got this.