Pesy One Shots

I'm Sorry, I Love You

Jesy Nelson has been in love with her best friend and band mate Perrie Edwards for longer than she can remember. Perrie is in love with Jesy, but doesn't accept herself, so she starts to push her away, leaving Jesy feeling alone and sad for the majority of the time.

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Perries Pov

"Jesy stop it, get away from me, i don't like you, i never will, you're meant to be my best friend why would you ruin our friendship by kissing me?!" i'm so mad right now, why would she do that? why would she go and ruin a perfectly good friendship by kissing me?! "Pez, i'm- i'm so sorry, i shouldn't have done that i don't know where it came from, i just- i'm sorry" i don't even feel bad for snapping at her, she has no right just randomly showing up at my house in the middle of the night and kissing me "i don't care Jesy, get out my house and don't come near me again, this friendship is done" as soon as i said this i saw the tear welding in her eyes but there's no way i could be friends with her now, she kissed me for gods sake "Perrie please don't end this, you're my best friend i love you- please" she was now sobbing, i felt a little bad for her, i don't like seeing her cry, but i need to stand my ground "no Jesy just get out, if u actually do love me, you'll leave me alone for good" and with that she left my house sobbing.

Jesys Pov

I can't believe i just done that why did i have to let my feelings get in the way and kiss her? now i feel like complete and utter shit, i've lost my best friend because i'm a stupid bitch that fell in love with her.

My house is only 5 minutes away from Perries but i decided to go for a walk to clear my head, so what should've been a 5 minute walk turned into an hour walk in the rain with tears running down my face.

I finally got home and immediately went for a shower to try take the puffiness away from my eyes, that didn't work though because i had been crying the whole shower. After that didn't work i decided to just get out and pour myself a drink,  well it was meant to be 'a' drink but that turned into 5 shots and a bottle of wine.

It's been 2 hours and i'm really drunk at this point but i'm still sobbing, i had no idea someone could produce this amount of tears and it was getting too much and i didn't want to be alone, so i phoned Jade to come over and at least try help me get over Perrie or get me sober.

*Phone Call*

Jadey: Jes? why are you phoning me at 2am?
Me: Heyyy Jeeddd.
Jadey: Jesy you drunk? it's a Tuesday night!
Me: Yeah, so funny story, i finally decided to tell Perrie how i feel, and i ended up kissing her b-before i could even tell her and- i couldn't finish this sentence i was crying so much, i felt like i couldn't breathe -Jade please come over i can't breathe, i-i need help.
Jadey: Oh alright okay, hold on Jes i'm just coming, take deep breathes in and out for me, can you do that?
Me: I'm trying, please hurry.
Jadey: Okay hold on love, i'm 2 minutes away, is the door unlocked?
Me: Y-y-yeah, i'm- i'm in the living room.
Jadey: Im outside i'll be in right now, i love you.
Me: I love you too.

*End of Call*

Jade came in and instantly hugged me and kept whispering calming things in my ear.

"You want to go sit down love?" Jade asked softly "U-Uh yeah" i was still trying to get my breath back after my meltdown so voice is really shaky "okay so what happened then?" she asked softly probably trying to avoid triggering any bad emotions "i- um, i decided to go to Perries and tell her how i feel but- but before i could i just kissed her and she yelled at me, and told me she doesn't want me near her again, so i- i fucked up, she doesn't want to see me so what am i meant to do jadey, she hates me, what do i do" i said sobbing into jade shoulder "i don't know babe i really don't, but what you have to do right now is breathe, so take deep breaths in and out for me" i was doing as she told me and i finally felt calmer after 10 minutes. I felt asleep soon after in Jades arms.